[FONT="Comic Sans MS"][COLOR="Indigo"]Hi Jerris,
Welcome to the boards. I think you'll find your own little piece of home on this board and also over on the pain mgmt board. There are many wonderful, knowledgeable people here. Don't be afraid to post anytime day or night, there's usually someone logged on at all times, even if you just need to vent, we understand :).
I would like to say that I'm so tired of pain too :mad:. It gets old, doesn't it? What our friends and family and even our doctors don't understand is that pain has stopped our lives. We can't live a normal life with chronic pain.
Are you currently seeing a PM (pain mgmt) doctor? Is he the doctor prescribing your meds? Have you been on the same doses of your pain meds for a while now? It could be that your body has simply built up a tolerance to your current doses, maybe your doctor just needs to up your meds. When is your next appt?
It does also sound like you're having some severe nerve pain. Have you tried Topamax? I've been taking it for 3 mths now and I love it. I've tried neurontin and lyrica previously. For the first 6 wks Topamax made me feel "dumb" (apparently topamax affects your frontal lobe in your brain) but since my body has adjusted to it, I feel fine. The great side effect to Topamax is weight loss. It kills your appetite. I've lost almost 30 lbs without effort. I would recommend that you talk to your doctor about trying Topamax to see if it's for you.
I'm a victim of "failed fusion syndrome" too. What a nice club to be forced into, hun? Lol. Sometimes you have to laugh, otherwise you'd cry. The other day I was watching an Extreme Makeover, Home Edition episode from October and this 8 yr old little girl had cancer and every evening, even when she was vomiting from having chemo, she would take teddy bears to other sick kids at her local hospital. That day I was really down b/c I was having a bad pain day and after watching that show, I realized I'd rather have chronic pain than battle cancer. If that little girl could fight cancer, I can fight chronic pain. My battle is nothing compared to hers. It definately gave me a new perspective on my back/pain problems.
Have you tried using a heating pad on your back? I LOVE my heating pad. There's nothing like scorching my back pain away. I turn it up full blast and burn my back until I can't take the heat anymore, literally. I know no doctor would say that's healthy but we all have to figure out what makes our own pain better and my heating pad is my saving grace :D.
Please keep us updated on how you're doing. I sincerely wish you the best. Take care.[/FONT]