Your alternative is death... Is this an acceptable resolve?
I am not sure this counts as a happy ending to what you request, but..
I was about to post this elsewhere, but pulled it... I didn't think it fit too well, instead I will post it here, but I still don't know if it fits too well..
I don't know how long you were on heroin (in your case, whatever u took ) or how much you took, or if u took it so long that, you were running out or had run out of places to inject yourself at. But a friend of mine, was hooked on it, was taking it daily, how many and how much I do not know, 6 months later, he resembled a walking skeleton, and wanted off it... what was going on exactly I do not know, his first request was for someone to just kill him. He didn't even resemble himself.. The individual who was his so called friend was keeping him in a constant high of the stuff, his so called friend later died...
(bad timing on his part but I can't tell u anything else of that part... ) My friend (now x heroin addict), actually attempted to go cold turkey for a week, needless to say it didn't go too well.. He eventually ended up checking himself into rehab, after ten (??) months of therapy and methadone, (for which he had to be weaned off of THAT as well.) he is now out and getting his life back, although he could have walked out at anytime, he kept with it, and with the help of others and a really cool psychiatrist, he was able to get most of his life back...but still had one rather major issue left of a hurdle to get past was remembering his past, he lost a year plus of memories... He still has gaps, but a lot of his horror of his missing past has pretty much came back to him.. (unfortunately, all at once..) He recognizes his so called friend who got him addicted, was no friend, but just a user, someone who drugged him and another person up, to use them for his deeds.. I am not going into the details, because it is irrelevant to this.. as for his other drugged up friend, he wasn't hooked on heroin, but other substances... his memory of the past year was also gone... but after 7 or 8 months he took his own life... odd thing was, he WAS the stronger one. My friend has since got most of his life back, and his weight and is doing pretty well, but still have some psychological issues to work through.. Any other details would invade his privacy... he is however now 21, and these events started about 17 to 18 months ago... and because a few of his older friends did care what happened to him, and were willing to give him another chance in life.. he is getting his life back.. But the psychological events that occurred during the time he was on the drug and what other " non specific events " occurred while he was on it, still took part of him away, and that part he will never get back.. He isn't who he was before, (he is 30 years wiser then he once was.. not exactly a good trade really..) I don't know if he was on the drug long enough to not suffer relapses? or if that is still to come. He is clean and has not had any other issues pertaining to the drug.. (least not yet.. ) Was his recovery easy? no, he was alone, terrified and went through h*ll while coming down, they wouldn't allow him visitor's for the first few months, not sure why... but as time dragged on, he got better. When he left rehab, his memory STILL had not returned.. he still has deep psychological scars, along with the physical ones.. (mostly needle marks ) but is doing waaaaaay better now than a year (or so ) ago. His other alternative was death... for which he was very close to before he went into rehab he resembled a walking skeleton. (and wished he was dead). He WAS temporarily on anti-depressants.. but is much better now.. and getting closer to his old self. (the good version)
does this help, or still looking for more or better? :wave: :confused:
[QUOTE=Best Friend]Forgive this "provocative" title. I KNOW 'intellectually' why we should ALL GET CLEAN! But TwinLynn and I were discussing Jerri's compelling piece (see Thread, "Why do we go through withdrawals") and we couldn't help but note that the author (was not sure if it was yours, Jerri?) stresses with perfect honesty that "'life after drugs' is never the same." Very depressing to be hit with that reality. Okay! I am savvy enough to know the 'comeback' to that one, myself: "Consider the alternative!" :eek: And, I must emphasize here, to all our friends on the Board, that I (and Lynn) are determined to 'clean up our acts'...we want our 'old' lives back. I guess we just want SO much to know that we WILL get some of 'our SELF/selves' back...that we will experience the (pardon the cliche) 'joy of simple pleasures'...that we may, once again, feel ALIVE like 'normal' people feel...like we USED to feel.
SO! The REQUEST! What I (we) - please keep in mind, as twin addicts, we often speak for both of us - to those of you who don't know us, I am not a multiple personality - :D ...what WE wish so very much to hear is ANY STORIES from those who have fought the good fight and feel good again...dare I say..."back to themselves." Kindawell's story was totally inspiring! And Yinksy's. Can anyone else here add their own 'inspirational' stories?? It would be so much appreciated. Something to "carry into the battle".... THANKS! :angel: :angel:
Alice (and Lynn) (P.S. My 'member name' is Best Friend. I selected it because I am a dawg fanatic and my 3 Shih Tzu have been just the greatest 'support system' - a source of so much love and such genuine laughter. But "Best Friend" also applies to 'hoomans.' I've met the BEST people on this board and I hope that I can be a 'Best Friend' in our mutual war to take back our lives.)
I am not sure this counts as a happy ending to what you request, but..
I was about to post this elsewhere, but pulled it... I didn't think it fit too well, instead I will post it here, but I still don't know if it fits too well..
I don't know how long you were on heroin (in your case, whatever u took ) or how much you took, or if u took it so long that, you were running out or had run out of places to inject yourself at. But a friend of mine, was hooked on it, was taking it daily, how many and how much I do not know, 6 months later, he resembled a walking skeleton, and wanted off it... what was going on exactly I do not know, his first request was for someone to just kill him. He didn't even resemble himself.. The individual who was his so called friend was keeping him in a constant high of the stuff, his so called friend later died...
(bad timing on his part but I can't tell u anything else of that part... ) My friend (now x heroin addict), actually attempted to go cold turkey for a week, needless to say it didn't go too well.. He eventually ended up checking himself into rehab, after ten (??) months of therapy and methadone, (for which he had to be weaned off of THAT as well.) he is now out and getting his life back, although he could have walked out at anytime, he kept with it, and with the help of others and a really cool psychiatrist, he was able to get most of his life back...but still had one rather major issue left of a hurdle to get past was remembering his past, he lost a year plus of memories... He still has gaps, but a lot of his horror of his missing past has pretty much came back to him.. (unfortunately, all at once..) He recognizes his so called friend who got him addicted, was no friend, but just a user, someone who drugged him and another person up, to use them for his deeds.. I am not going into the details, because it is irrelevant to this.. as for his other drugged up friend, he wasn't hooked on heroin, but other substances... his memory of the past year was also gone... but after 7 or 8 months he took his own life... odd thing was, he WAS the stronger one. My friend has since got most of his life back, and his weight and is doing pretty well, but still have some psychological issues to work through.. Any other details would invade his privacy... he is however now 21, and these events started about 17 to 18 months ago... and because a few of his older friends did care what happened to him, and were willing to give him another chance in life.. he is getting his life back.. But the psychological events that occurred during the time he was on the drug and what other " non specific events " occurred while he was on it, still took part of him away, and that part he will never get back.. He isn't who he was before, (he is 30 years wiser then he once was.. not exactly a good trade really..) I don't know if he was on the drug long enough to not suffer relapses? or if that is still to come. He is clean and has not had any other issues pertaining to the drug.. (least not yet.. ) Was his recovery easy? no, he was alone, terrified and went through h*ll while coming down, they wouldn't allow him visitor's for the first few months, not sure why... but as time dragged on, he got better. When he left rehab, his memory STILL had not returned.. he still has deep psychological scars, along with the physical ones.. (mostly needle marks ) but is doing waaaaaay better now than a year (or so ) ago. His other alternative was death... for which he was very close to before he went into rehab he resembled a walking skeleton. (and wished he was dead). He WAS temporarily on anti-depressants.. but is much better now.. and getting closer to his old self. (the good version)
does this help, or still looking for more or better? :wave: :confused:
[QUOTE=Best Friend]Forgive this "provocative" title. I KNOW 'intellectually' why we should ALL GET CLEAN! But TwinLynn and I were discussing Jerri's compelling piece (see Thread, "Why do we go through withdrawals") and we couldn't help but note that the author (was not sure if it was yours, Jerri?) stresses with perfect honesty that "'life after drugs' is never the same." Very depressing to be hit with that reality. Okay! I am savvy enough to know the 'comeback' to that one, myself: "Consider the alternative!" :eek: And, I must emphasize here, to all our friends on the Board, that I (and Lynn) are determined to 'clean up our acts'...we want our 'old' lives back. I guess we just want SO much to know that we WILL get some of 'our SELF/selves' back...that we will experience the (pardon the cliche) 'joy of simple pleasures'...that we may, once again, feel ALIVE like 'normal' people feel...like we USED to feel.
SO! The REQUEST! What I (we) - please keep in mind, as twin addicts, we often speak for both of us - to those of you who don't know us, I am not a multiple personality - :D ...what WE wish so very much to hear is ANY STORIES from those who have fought the good fight and feel good again...dare I say..."back to themselves." Kindawell's story was totally inspiring! And Yinksy's. Can anyone else here add their own 'inspirational' stories?? It would be so much appreciated. Something to "carry into the battle".... THANKS! :angel: :angel:
Alice (and Lynn) (P.S. My 'member name' is Best Friend. I selected it because I am a dawg fanatic and my 3 Shih Tzu have been just the greatest 'support system' - a source of so much love and such genuine laughter. But "Best Friend" also applies to 'hoomans.' I've met the BEST people on this board and I hope that I can be a 'Best Friend' in our mutual war to take back our lives.)
