Quote from Murphy555:You are caring people yet you come on the board not walking in my shoes for the past 2 weeks to tell me they my posts are incoherent??? I reread my post, and I didn't find it to be incoherent, yet a few weeks ago when I was taking valiums and more valiums, I admitted to that, but why is it scaring you that you think this post is incoherent. May I point out to you that on the first sentence of your post "incoherAnt" is spelled incoherent. Second, I type 100 wpm and I've been trying to ..and well never mind because I'm hurting, and I'm not going to defend your feeling that my post is incoherent. That's really caring, helpful. In what way.
Nobody said people in hospitals were "mean" - you said that. I said I didn't want to go inpatient as in MY experience, with agorophobia you feel lik you're going to die which makes the problems worse.
I've taken responsibility for my addiction 6 months ago by walking into a Drs. Office and getting on suboxone and plan to wean off. And I'm trying to take responsibility now by seeking treatment the way I fee most safe and secure.
I'm not blaming Marcia for anything, but she HAS done and said a few unprofessional things like suggesting order more valium from the internet. Now I'm trying to get help and was doing great right before the valium episode which another Dr. told me it didn't make much sent to go inpatient given the amount I've taken. Are you a Dr.?
Now could I please ask you to leave me alone. I'm in a bad enough state as it is. So respectfully, please don't respond to my posts. They lack compassion, understanding, like Linn's (without the coddling) Thank god for the Linns in the world. How is my coherence this time?
MURPHY MAYBE YOUR POSTS ARE SO INCOHERENT BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANT YET I CAN COMPLETLY SYMPATHYZE WITH YOU ABOUT THE DOCS AND SO ON JERKING YOU IVE BEEN THROUGH THIS MY SELF FOR ALMOST 3 MONTHS NOT LONG BUT STILL LONG ENOUGH I DETOXED OFF METHADONE WHICH YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE WEANED OFF OF SLOWLY FOR HOWEVER LONG IT TAKES IT COULD TAKE SEVERAL MONTHS OR YEARS FOR HIGHER DOES YOU KNOW WHAT I GOT A FENTANAL PATCH FOR 15 DAYS AND WAS TOLD YOU'LL BE AS GOOD AS NEW F-THAT SO IGO TO MY PAIN DOC HE SAYS OH HERES SOME PAXIL THIS WILL HELP ALREADY TAKING EFFEXOR SO I FINALLY FIND A COUNCELOR AND COUNCELOR PRESCRIBER THAT WILL LISTEN AND SAID YOU WERE TAKEN OFF MUCH TO FAST SO NOW I TAKE 50 THOUSAND OTHER DRUGS I DONT KNOW YOUR FULL STORY BUT I KNOW THE HEALTH CARE SYSTEM CAN SUCK I HOPE YOU FIGURE OUT WHATS RIGHT FOR YOU SORRY SO LONG KELLEIGH