I would be very cautious using the buprenorphine with out a drs order, and I believe that Bup is only Rx'd in sublingual and injectable form as it does not digest well. I would check furter into that. As far as the ultram goes I was able to keep withdraw at bay with taking 3 three times a day but at the end of it all withdraw was certian. I really hope you consider prof. help, perhaps a maint. drug like sub or methadone if your a chronic relapser. I don't remember if you have said but does your girlfriend know about your addiction? If not confiding in her and having her support can be very comforting. Be strong and sometimes what we thing are wise choices are just our addictions talking, its voice is loud and powerfull but if you are ready you can block it out.
Teresa
Teresa