Hey there guys and gals,
I'm sorry I haven't written since I've been back. Its been for several reasons----1. I'm back in school ( 19 hrs this semester ) 2. Work is hell.....and third,, well I'm kinda ashamed. To make a long story short ( I will post later about my trip ) My supply lasted me through most of my trip, ran out at the end, went and saw a doc and got 30 timed release 100mg Tramadol. Those helped me make it home. Before I left, I had ordered 60 50mg codeine phosphate for when I got back, in addition to the fact that my supplier came through for me as soon as I got back. Can you say relapse? So, I hated myself for that, but kept insisting in my mind that as soon as I ran out this time that I was gonna do something about it. By the way, I did talk to my girlfriend about it while on the trip. She is very supportive and is even proud of me. It was the first time I've cried in years. So, I'm back, school is hell, work is worse. I'd love to talk to many of you and will this weekend, but I need some quick answers before tomorrow morning from those who know about Meth.
1. Do they actually give you a dose on the first day? I am beginning withdrawals right now and really hope that they do. ( Isn't it crazy how many times we go through this ) Does the first dose actually last through the entire day for anyone? How long does it usually take till you get to a level that will last you throughout the day and night?
2. How long does the first visit take?
3. How much harder is it to come off of methadone than oxy's. I'm very afraid of this and its the one thing that prevented me from going to the clinic as soon as I got home. Everyone keeps saying that the withdrawals can last twice as long with Meth. Well, I can't go through 8 days of withdrawals. That would kill me. It is possible to eliminate or reduce significantly the withdrawals one experiences with a Meth taper?
4. How long must you stay on the program? If you miss a day, do they kick you out? I would only like to be on the Meth long enough to get to the level I need for a few week and then begin to taper. I really want to be totally clean. I remember what it feels like and I want it.
5. Does the meth make you feel good/bad/energetic/lethargic/or affect your mood at all?
6. Is it really worth it.......just give me your opinion?
Thank all of you so much. Your advice and encouraging words have been jewels in my bleak world lately. I go back and read them often. I will post about my trip soon. I do think that no matter what, I will be going to the clinic tomorrow. I just want a little more advice from those who have experienced it before I go. Thanks again!
Hang in there.............all of you!
Jester
I'm sorry I haven't written since I've been back. Its been for several reasons----1. I'm back in school ( 19 hrs this semester ) 2. Work is hell.....and third,, well I'm kinda ashamed. To make a long story short ( I will post later about my trip ) My supply lasted me through most of my trip, ran out at the end, went and saw a doc and got 30 timed release 100mg Tramadol. Those helped me make it home. Before I left, I had ordered 60 50mg codeine phosphate for when I got back, in addition to the fact that my supplier came through for me as soon as I got back. Can you say relapse? So, I hated myself for that, but kept insisting in my mind that as soon as I ran out this time that I was gonna do something about it. By the way, I did talk to my girlfriend about it while on the trip. She is very supportive and is even proud of me. It was the first time I've cried in years. So, I'm back, school is hell, work is worse. I'd love to talk to many of you and will this weekend, but I need some quick answers before tomorrow morning from those who know about Meth.
1. Do they actually give you a dose on the first day? I am beginning withdrawals right now and really hope that they do. ( Isn't it crazy how many times we go through this ) Does the first dose actually last through the entire day for anyone? How long does it usually take till you get to a level that will last you throughout the day and night?
2. How long does the first visit take?
3. How much harder is it to come off of methadone than oxy's. I'm very afraid of this and its the one thing that prevented me from going to the clinic as soon as I got home. Everyone keeps saying that the withdrawals can last twice as long with Meth. Well, I can't go through 8 days of withdrawals. That would kill me. It is possible to eliminate or reduce significantly the withdrawals one experiences with a Meth taper?
4. How long must you stay on the program? If you miss a day, do they kick you out? I would only like to be on the Meth long enough to get to the level I need for a few week and then begin to taper. I really want to be totally clean. I remember what it feels like and I want it.
5. Does the meth make you feel good/bad/energetic/lethargic/or affect your mood at all?
6. Is it really worth it.......just give me your opinion?
Thank all of you so much. Your advice and encouraging words have been jewels in my bleak world lately. I go back and read them often. I will post about my trip soon. I do think that no matter what, I will be going to the clinic tomorrow. I just want a little more advice from those who have experienced it before I go. Thanks again!
Hang in there.............all of you!
Jester