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Hi Zoso,
Glad to have you here! It is very hard to get off xanax, I never took them but my husband is currently tapering off klonopin and methadone and I see the pain he is going through. Try to look up "Ashton Manual" she is a lady that is a specialist on all those benzos and they can give you insight on tapering and some helpful hints because I know you have to be very careful when tapering off those. Anyways, my story has been posted too but I can brief you real quick.

I started like most people, I had carpul tunnel syndrom and was on workmans comp. That workmans comp dr prescribed me 100 vicodin every 4 weeks and at first I never touched them I gave them to friends not knowing how addicting they were ( I would NEVER do that now) but that only lasted a few months and of coarse I tried one and felt nothing really. The next day I tried it AGAIN?!!!!!!! and felt a really happy feeling come over me and I suddenly LOVED doing my housework and doing all the crapy work around the house. From that moment on it became a necessity in my life. Well my case setteled and of coarse the vics were clipped. So my husband had a friend that used to sell them for 3$ a pill and we bought them for 2 years on the street and sometimes up to 7$ a pill. Well then the worst thing possible happend, we found a dr that wrote them for no reason at all. I really mean that, he would literally take my blood pressure and write me 100 norcos a month and this was not enough for me so I had 2 drs writing me scripts and it became like a second job and HUGE weight on my chest because everything was planned around those pills. I also hid this addiction from EVERYONE around me except my husband cause he was my partner in crime. We lived this secret life that no one had any idea! We owned our house and had owned a good business had the kids and minivan, you just would have no idea what was going on behind our doors. Well, I dont know if you have read about my father but he recently just died in prison cause he was striked out here in California and he got sentenced to 25 years to life in prsion and only made it 7 years into his sentence and had a major heart attack due the life style he led. 25 years of heroin, methodone, klonopin, valium, chloral hydrate, and some years of cocaine and pot. I did go visit him and he would tell me to not mess with those opiates and I lied and told him I wasnt but he knew inside that I was. He told me everytime we visited not to get addicted to opiates cause the comedown is worse than any he has ever faced! That scared me and I knew I was in deep and did not know how to get out. By the grace of God I got pregnant with my second child and I got clean through the whole pregnancy but 2 days after coming home from the hospital I started with a 1/2 and moved on up within 2 weeks to 6 a day. It got out of controla now my son is 26 months and I have 26 days today. I went through the worst depression of my life coming off those pills! I cant believe how lifeless I really was. You truly dont engage into life when fogged by pills. My husband did not have it so easy, he is still tapering and I finally got him suboxone to finally get clean for good! We want our life back and this is the only way. We moved out of our hometown, we sold everything our house, business and moved away thinking we be far away from the drs. That only made our addiction more expensive because we actually drove FURTHER to get there! So there is no running from this, you need to face it head on and walk through it and when you come out the other side you are a person of integrity and self confidence. This is something that no pill could make you feel and this is way more rewarding than that lost, shameful and broken place those pills put you in. Well I hope my story helped and I am here for ya anytime. Good luck to you and stay strong.

mara:wave: