[QUOTE=feelbad;2726774]i have some advice for you but first i need to know a couple of things.is he taking any other Rx meds at this time,perhaps an anti depressant?if so,when did he start taking that anti D? also,when did he start the meth and when did you actually really start to notice the changes in his personality?what are his actual pain issues?what has he been Dxed with?if you could do this for me it would really help me to give you the best possible advice.I too suffer greatly from severe chronic pain from spinal cord injuries and other major medical problems,and am also a former addict(well,technically still am since once an addict always an addict but there are active addicts and inactive addicts),thanks,Marcia
I did the same thing in the sense that i too,began to get opiates for legitimate pain.It started with Vicodin and grew to Oxycontin.My mother in law (ex now)and husband (also ex!) also got them.I was to take them daily 3 times.They were the 20mgs.I didn't take them according to label though.There are two types of addiction and if your husband is indeed taking them according to label then he probably is what's called physically dependent on them.Though his behavior would indicate otherwise.Denial is a warning sign.Be grateful he takes them as directed.If he ran out the withdrawls would be heartbreaking for you to see.(and intolerable for him to go through)I wanted to quit so badly,once I realized how hooked I was.I'd do ANYTHING to get those things.I was taking 200mgs a day.Plus heroin.I hated my life and myself.Your husband may not get "high" on the pills(anymore)but he most definitly did at first.He doesn't now because he needs these pills to feel normal.You'd know if he was out because he'd be obviously sick.The pills wired me out but tend to make a lot of people drowsy.Ecspesially if they take too much.He's moody and mean because he doesn't feel the same off of them and since he's been on them so long and at such a high dosage that they probably aren't effective for his pain either.My ex got 120 40s a month plus 240 15mg oxycodone tablets.And we bought his moms pills and his dads.(for our use)I went to in-patient re-hab 6 times.It didn't work because I couldn't handle the pain (mental)and depression and cravings.i kept up until I was so sick of that life that I went to my doctor and told her everything.She verified it all and sent me to a methadone clinic.I've been there two years now.My life has changed 100 percent.Yes,I'm addicted to methadone.But I don't take more than prescribed.I have never had a dirty UA or sold my carries.I work full time and feel great.I have my life back.My kids have mom back.There is a huge difference between my addiction to Oxys and this addiction.This one is much more productive.Hopefully one day I can taper down.I'm not ready now.I have too much stress,I know I'd go right back to using.Yuor husband does have a problem he just can't admit it or doesn't realize it.He shouldn't be mean or sleepy if he doesn't have a problem.If he thinks if he didn't have the pain he wouldn't use he's wrong.Ask him to go on-line and research physical dependence.Tell him you just want him to see that there are 2 types of addiction and maybe he will see you understand that he's not a "junkie"but a man with a legitmate pain issue who IS addicted to pills.Maybe that will wake him up.Please keep me posted.~~~~~~Dawn~~~~~~