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hello. It has been since Jan. 3rd when I had to do 12 days in jail from something that happened in 2002 when I moved back to Oregon in Dec, (since I got high or dosed)...
Well, At that time when I went in I had a been taking 100mg's of methadone for 4 years, oh and also was taking 2 mg's of Xanax daily... Anyway, I decided when I found out they weren't going to dose me that I would just quit dry, and not go back to the clinic... OK. Now it is April, and I have been cheating a bit. I have been taking swigs off of my husbands methadone like 2 times a week, it's like a heroin high because I am not doing heroin... Anyhow I do start to get a bit asymptomatic like 4 days after my last dose and I take my husbands percocets to sleep, it is just like a vicious cycle, and I need some advice badly... I feel alone and upset at myself. I messed up my balance that I finally gained back after 5 years....

Thanks!

ps please reply, I need to know that I am alright...
Phoenix,
Thanks for the advice... I do need to stay outta of his shit... He loves me, and gives me the respect of this being, "My Sobriety", and only mine... I need to stand up and take responsibility for how far I have come, and stop messing around... Getting off methadone the way I did was not easy, and people say, "damn girl, you are a soldier"...(other people on methadone who are scared shit-less to even think of skipping a day or a dose)...
Phoenix, thanks for the reply & time you put into my post... Keep in touch.....

Thanks

starla ;)