I haven't been able to get off the heroin yet because I've tested the waters to see how sick I'm gonna be when I start to withdraw, and it's so bad. Muscle cramps that leave me doubled over and crying, sh!!ing myself, it's... it's really bad. Also more than anything I just loathe not being able to sleep for 6 days straight which is what happens to me. I was wondering if I do a methadone or suboxone detox for a few weeks if A. the withdrawals from that will be as bad as quitting heroin cold turkey and B. which withdrawals are worse, methadone or suboxone? I really would like to do it cold turkey and not have to pay 20 bucks a day for pills, but I can't afford to miss anymore work or school and I would have to if I'm puking and not sleeping etc. I loathe drugs, I loathe them!!! I can't believe I let them take me over once again. I don't believe in the devil, but if I did, opiate withdrawal is definitely the devil's creation.