so i'm 24 i started using when i was 21. i started buying vicodens from my "friend." then one day he says hey, i got these new things call roxy's. there's supposed to be the best. here i'll give you one for free to try out.. so i crushed it up and up it went.. 10 minutes later i thought i found it! something that makes me feel great! so i continued to take the roxy's for another year.. started out with a quater of one, ended up doing 10-12 a day. after i wanted to get off those i found the methadones, they were cheaper, i only needed one a day to feel "normal." so two years later they ru(i)n my life. my family doesnt know im an addict.. hell i've done such a good job living a second life my gf of a year n a half doesnt know that i take them! now im done, im tired of feeling this way. im tired of having to take a pill just to get up and go to work each day. its been two days now and i haven't had anything. as you all know i feel like total and compleat shit! i want to get on suboxone to help with things but im worried i'll just rely on that. if that happens it doesn't solve any of my problems.. plus money is an issue. so im trying it cold turkey! I guess im here for the support.. im not sure.. im my mind i know i want to never touch one again! but i dont know if im strong enough to do it on my own. if there's anything i can do, or take to make it any easier the help would be great.. i know i just gotta keep my head up and keep thinking about how much greener the grass is on the other side!!