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I'm new to this board and really don't know where else to go to vent and maybe get some help. First of all, a little about myself and my background: I'm 34 years old, married with a little boy who will be 3 in August. I've never had problems with depression and/or anxiety, just have enjoyed using drugs recreationally from time to time in my past. Well, since getting pregnant with my son, I had been completely drug and alcohol free, until about a year ago when some dental problems got me started on painkillers. First Vicodin, then Vicodin ES, then Percocet. I CAN'T STOP TAKING THEM!

I've been doing everything in my power to get more of these drugs, and now I need to stop. I've seen about 4 dentists in our town (pretty small town too), gone through my PC doctor, and have been to the ER more times than I care to remember. I'm running out of options and I am just scared to death.

My doctor actually weaned me down with methadone, this was after I came clean to him and admitted my problem in January. But, the cravings came back strong as my methadone dose got lower. So, I've been back on Percocets now for about a month. I usually take 8-10 per day.

I have 5 days off starting tomorrow and only 4 percs left. I'm going to quit. I am petrified of the withdrawals, especially because my son needs me to be well. I have xanax and ambien (which I never take -my friend gave them to me a while ago) to help, if they'll help at all.

Any input or advice will be much appreciated. My husband knows a little bit of what's going on, but I have not told him the full extent of my addiction. HELP!????!!?

Thanks for listening, it helps to get this out.