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hi my name is john and i was on prescribed meds i.e percocet for a car accident well i started to abuse them i was takeing about 10 or 15 percocet a day a couple of 40mg of oxycontin and about 20mg of valium at night i never had taken anything before in my life well one day i stoped threw everything down the toilet i was on them for about a year and a half,well that wasnt the smart thing to do i guess because i was real sick i even passed outsmashed my face off the refridg and broke my two front teeth among getting sutered up on my lip.well my doc said i had to go into a detox never been there before so i went right from the hospital i was scared i was feeling things going on in my body and mind i never felt before well they put me on methadone and i finally went home after a 2weeks i felt ok for two days then out of the blue i started feeling these weird things going on i was sweating up the back of my neck feeling like i was going crazy,sick to my stomach heart pounding,really shaky nervous,and my mind it was like real foggy not sure like where i was it wasnt right then passed out again when i woke i was soaked with sweat went to the hospital and they told me i developed a panic disorder a severe one i told them i felt like i was gonna die. well went to see a psyciatrist hope i spelled that right? and for about a year they had me trying all kinda meds like wellbuterin,paxil,zoloft,celexa,klonopin,ativan,a couple of others i dont remember well the paxil made it worse i was getting pinching pains worse in my chest then before,the others didnt seem to do much,well to sum it up i was clean for about 17 months not takeing anything for the panic i was scared in the past 17 months i passed out several times when the panic came about my doc said i shouldnt pass out but i do 5 out of10 times we did bloodwork ech cardio gram thats like they can see the valves and stuff and they also did a catscan sorry for my life story but im new and wanted to share some of my history well to sum it up im ashamed i relapsed i started to take vicodin and percs again at 5 per day for about a mont now and im finding it hard to stop im scared again because what happened in the past this time i know i cant just through them away any help will be great thanx...