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Interesting story. But in all honesty I don't believe that accident made you an addict. Your made yourself an addict. At the end of the day you decide if you should take those pills or not. Either you do or you don't. Its that simple. Nothing influnces your decision. You simply take them.

Now I'm not flaming you or cutting you down. I can relate to your story. See I have IBS. Living with that is hard/pain enough. I'll never do another colonoscopy period. If anyone has done one they know what I mean.

Getting to the point, I had to go for surgery to repair my large intestine (part of the bowel) as somehow it tore bad and was causing my intense pain and other problems.

I went for surgery the day after my birthday. So on my birthday I wasn't having a party or had family over or going out and getting drunk....I was prepping for this surgery by not eating for 2 days and drinking this crap that made you go to the washroom 200 times but it was so gross you pukes half it back up. So picture a guy vomiting and crapping his pants at the same time. I wanted to die...

I had the surgery, couldnt' eat anything solid or sit properly for 2 weeks! It hurt so bad. Not only that, the surgery didnt stay so I actually went back 3 more times!!!! in 7 months!!!!!!

That yr has forever changed my life...As for the pain all I took was Morphine while in the hospital. I could inject myself every 6 minutes.

Even after I was released and couldnt walk, sit and had to wear a diaper. I never took anything for pain even though the pain was very intense........

Ultimately the decision is yours...I choose not to take them and hence today I am ok. Yes they are addicting and make you feel good.

Maybe your taking them to feel good?
:wave: I remember when I was about 14, I changed peer groups and started running with the party crowd (who later became the addicted crowd). We started drinking Robitussin A.C. (And Codeine) cough syrup. At that time (early 60's) all you had to do was sign your name with the pharmacist to get 4 ounces for $1.56 (no prescription required). It was easier to get and cheaper than alcohol and it kept you high all day. Then in October 1965, the law was passed in California requiring a prescription for codeine cough syrup. I was in the service at the time (Vietnam) and by the time I got home (1967), all my old friends had changed their drug of choice to heroin. Most were in the California Rehabilitation Center (CRC) for drug related crimes. When I got out of the service (1968), all my old friends were being released from CRC at approximately the same time. They were all shooting heroin and I remember tieing them off and watching them, but I told them I would never put a needle in my arm. Then one night while I was drunk and they were shooting their heroin, they all dared me to try it. They said, "David, you are the only one that hasn't tried it. You have to trie it." And so I did and don't think I would have if I hadn't been drunk (I had a drinking problem by that time and didn't even know it). That's all it took, I tried it and swore I would never do it again cause it made me throw up so bad and crave liquids because I felt so dehydrated. The very next day, I did it again, and have been battling the monster ever since. I recently (April of this year) started using again after 10 years of being clean and sober. It started after a surgery that woke up the monster with morphine and being discharged with Lortabs. When I could not longer refill the Lortabs, I started looking for a connection, found one, and went on a 7-month run of two grams a day. Today, I completed a detox last month and have been going to 12-step meetings almost daily, trying to get clean and sober again. Now I know, that I'm going to be an addict till the day I die. Being clean for 10 years, I thought I had beat it, but all I did was wake it up and I never want to go through the pain of relapse again. It's just not worth it. I loved being clean and sober and want what I had those 10-years again. I didn't plan on writing all this. But it is my experience of how I got started and that I'm going to be an addict (whether clean or not) until the day I die.
David :wave:
DavidPS - just a question... what made you try it again the second day if the first time made you so sick? I think we learn from each other's experiences so I was just curious why you tried it the second time? Also, how fast does that stuff get you? Did you want it daily immediately or did it take some time? I've only been addicted to Lortabs/Percocets so I have no experience w/Heroine.



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:wave: I remember when I was about 14, I changed peer groups and started running with the party crowd (who later became the addicted crowd). We started drinking Robitussin A.C. (And Codeine) cough syrup. At that time (early 60's) all you had to do was sign your name with the pharmacist to get 4 ounces for $1.56 (no prescription required). It was easier to get and cheaper than alcohol and it kept you high all day. Then in October 1965, the law was passed in California requiring a prescription for codeine cough syrup. I was in the service at the time (Vietnam) and by the time I got home (1967), all my old friends had changed their drug of choice to heroin. Most were in the California Rehabilitation Center (CRC) for drug related crimes. When I got out of the service (1968), all my old friends were being released from CRC at approximately the same time. They were all shooting heroin and I remember tieing them off and watching them, but I told them I would never put a needle in my arm. Then one night while I was drunk and they were shooting their heroin, they all dared me to try it. They said, "David, you are the only one that hasn't tried it. You have to trie it." And so I did and don't think I would have if I hadn't been drunk (I had a drinking problem by that time and didn't even know it). That's all it took, I tried it and swore I would never do it again cause it made me throw up so bad and crave liquids because I felt so dehydrated. The very next day, I did it again, and have been battling the monster ever since. I recently (April of this year) started using again after 10 years of being clean and sober. It started after a surgery that woke up the monster with morphine and being discharged with Lortabs. When I could not longer refill the Lortabs, I started looking for a connection, found one, and went on a 7-month run of two grams a day. Today, I completed a detox last month and have been going to 12-step meetings almost daily, trying to get clean and sober again. Now I know, that I'm going to be an addict till the day I die. Being clean for 10 years, I thought I had beat it, but all I did was wake it up and I never want to go through the pain of relapse again. It's just not worth it. I loved being clean and sober and want what I had those 10-years again. I didn't plan on writing all this. But it is my experience of how I got started and that I'm going to be an addict (whether clean or not) until the day I die.
David :wave: