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I finished all my lab work and physical examination today! Tomorrow I start a 21-day outpatient, blind detox from heroin with methadone. I was wondering if anyone has any experience with this type of withdrawal treatment. I can't take it anymore. I'm too old to be doing this to myself and have been battling this monster most of my life. After being clean for 10 years and then waking it up with morphine and Lortabs after surgery because I was not honest with my doctor, I want so bad to be clean and start living again. Opiates just don't work anymore for me, no high, just getting half-way well. So I hope and pray this is it, that this is the last day of my using heroin for the rest of my life, one day at a time. I would appreciate any support but I know also the stigma that being a heroin addict brings with it. To me it's just one of many opiates and I've been addicted to most I shamefully admit. I hope I either get clean or God takes me out of this world because the fight has worn me down and I'm afraid I can't take it much longer. It just does not work anymore. So I'm hoping this works for me and I think it will because I'm determined to get back what I had, really living life, during those 10 years I was clean and sober. Take care and thanks for letting me get this out.