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you people are so welcoming, thank you for being a friend to my husband. i have found out more and more as the days past, i want you to understand my husband before i tell you guys this. he was in love with his children, music, sports, movies (600 dvd) collection or more and working out. he was a tall well built man with over 15 tatoos on his arms and shoulders, he would always tell me that his wearing a suit everyday covered his "shell" i never really figured it out until his passing. he always would go to the garage at night when he got home for 10 minutes, last night i rumaged around and couldn't find anything he may have been doing until i saw his goldf bag and looked in there expecting to find golf stuff i found his stuff. 3-500 quanity 10mg/325 hydrocodone/acetaminophen 2 bottles of 80mg oxycontin, 2 bottles of 60mg morphine and a bunch of xanax and valium pills, and a note.ijust cried, i can't belive all of this stuff. did he hurt that bad or did he rally want to go?. all the note said was "lisa if you find this 2 things have happened, your going to kick my *** or i passed away. listen baby i didn't mean this to happen, it just did. i'm sorry please always remember i love you and my babys. please always kiss them everyday and let them know daddy is watching over them as an angel, love frank.
i cant do this anymore, i feel so alone. he left me with everything yet i have nothing. i promised to let everyone know what happened when i get the autopsy report. julie, i read all the posts, sorry your in pain. you guys connected and am happy for that, please help yourself and be strong for your kids, i'm going to hang on and live through ours. ps i got your email and will send you a message ok. thanks again everyone, i'll keep you in my prayers with my husband. everywhere i go i feel him, when i got in his escalade yesterday this song was playing on his cd "numb", he loved this band along with all music, 60's, funk, alternative, the doors and zeplin and rap, ish but he liked it. sorry for going on, again i'll promise to post the real medical report for you when i get it.

peace,rest and love,

lisa



Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be