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:confused: I have no injuries but I do take Vicoden for the last 4 years. The odd way I got started on it was my premature-ejactulating problem with my grilfriend( NO JOKE). My freind had given me 4 vicodens of his farthers and I NEVER HAD that issue again. I begain to reley on them when we had sex, me and friend was the only ones who knew. Now the girls been gone for 2 years. I am still doing vicoden and somtimes mophine. I an I take 7 to 8 vic a morning, 7 about 4o'cloak and another 5 or 6 before I go to bed. I don't have a docters prescription for this . This is only personal to me,and me only. No one in my family or cricle of freinds knows.

I've tried going cold turkey 7 times 4 yrs and the longest I did was 5 days. I looked into going into counseneling or a methadone lab but i CANNOT OFFORD ANY OF THAT. Worse is that I don't by the pills I steal then from my grandmother and another relitive, I HATE MY SELF FOR THIS LIKE MAD. So if I did go into a program to help , only of my family members might now. Then my grandmother will figure out that ,that is were she's missing some each month. I have been doing it for 4 yrs now and hate it !!! Some one any ideas I can do??? I cannot afford a treatmemt plant. I work so when I don't have my normmal 8 5/500 vics I suffer at work. But at work when I do have it i'M speedy and way alert and myself. When I don't have any at work I find myself running to the bathroom. I had great grades in school ( I'm 32 yrs old noW), I have a god job its just I have this addiction and I know its been showing in my moods and I just want to quit before it really tears up my life an I hate going into thier bedroom to find their dugs and take some and hope they don't recount thier supply.

I HATE THIS ;;;;;;; NO MORE MORPHINE OR VICODEN ANYMORE PLEASE.

btw I do 11 or those ( the ones that say 15) mophine blue pills and you feel in heaven for ALMOST 24 OURS.

BUT I WANT TO STOP CAN SOMEONE OFFER SUGGESTIONS , SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T CAUSE MUCH MONEY.

Thank you :angel:
Edit/Delete Message :confused:Vicodin 5/500mg and 7.5/700mg and morphine (little blue pill 15mg)