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Hey man...

I'm in a very similar situation as you. While my condition is not nearly as bad as yours( I had a laminectomy at L5-S1 about 3 weeks ago) I feel all the things that you do. Since surgery, my pain has in fact gotten worse. I spend my days either in bed or on the couch and most days I watch my g/f of 5 years head off to work. It is extremely difficult and emasculating to know that you can't fulfill the basic expectations of a husband or b/f. I am a chef by trade (classically trained) and have to face the fact that standing for 12 hours at a time may never be possible for me again. I went through several careers until I finally realized cooking is the only thing I love to do, and now...well now I cant even think about it w/o breaking down in tears. It's the only thing I've ever really excelled at and there is nothing I want more than to open my own place, but physically it may never be possible. The only thing I can do is accept that. It's hard, and it doesn't happen overnight, but you will find your way, just like I know I will find mine.

There will always be people who abuse the system...doesn't matter if it's the ssdi, the insurance companies, even the pain mgmt clinics...there will always be people who make it harder for the first the rest of us to get the help we need. Once again, there is of course nothing we can do about it. Do your best not to get angry...it sounds like you get extremely angry but bottle it up which is probably even worse...not sure what to tell you there, only that i empathize with you...

I think maybe you should try finding other surgeons in order to get even more opinions. I went through three before i found one that said there was obvious pathology, ordered a mylegram to confirm, and went in to really solve the problem. Although my pain is still infuriating and debilitating, I am having an ESI tomorrow AM, I have started on neurontin, and I believe that even if neither of these things work, I will not give up and my doc will not give up either.

Try and keep it together, do something nice for your wife, if you are able, and just hang in there man...things are bound to get better.

-josh