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unfortunately...I have to admit the hormones are intesifying everything right now so it doesnt help....

Chris has been having increased pain the past few days... he has been on the fentanyl patch... they gave him 100's at first...and maybe only once a day had to take anything else...infact he said he felt too dopey on them so they prescribed him some 75's to use... which he did once but we had to switch back to 100s b/c his pain got more intense at times... they also Rx's some morphine drops for immediate release for any breakthrough pain...

he has been having to use that 2x a day and now take norco at times also...

I am really scared about his pain increasing... Kim,I dont know how you get through it with Stan, it has got to be so hard...you just want to take the pain away and there isnt much that can be done sometimes...you feel so helpless! And I know it is going to keep getting worse and worse...I am scared to give him too much meds...scared to not give him enough...just scared for what I know he is going to be gnig through. I know he has it in is back...I am worried about the tumors growing and fracturing his bones...
he is still walking around some but I know it is going to get harder and eventually he will be bedridden..I am so scared for that day....

I am scared b/c we dont really talk about what is going on... probably mostly my fault...I am waiting for cues from him but they arent coming..I need to push it... I am afraid of him dying and no plans have been made...he has not spoken about what he wants... I have no clue where to start....
I know he wants to be here when the time comes...I am really scared and very anxious about that... I really dont know if I can handle it esp if it happens with just me here... I dont know if there will be a warning....or he will just go...his heart is beating so fast these days I know he could just have a heart attack... I sit and wonder what is going to take him...
I am scared too b/c yesterday he was short of breath just sitting...it went away after a while...but I know the tumors in his lungs are growing... and are going to be blocking airways... His Dr told me it is going to happen more and more... great.... I dont want him to go gasping for air... I think that would be worst of all...I dont know what the odds are of that...I know they can medicate him so it eases it but what if it happens suddenly and there arent medical people around?
I have no one close by if I need them...his brother is 3-4 hours away and his sisters, my best friend and my mother are all 1-1/2 hrs away....
i really dont know if I can handle him passing here...I really have a thing about seeing people after they have died...I am extremely anxious about this...but I have to honor what he wants...it isnt about me...so I will have to pretend it is okay and not let him know how scared I am about all of this...
all it would do is just upset him and make him feel bad... I certainly dont want that.....

sorry for the length...I just had to get this out somewhere....
I'm scared!