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Hello again :)

Hubby just left for the office - now I get my home office back lol.

I'll start from the beginning...

4 years ago, I had a gall-bladder attack, went to the hospital, had a CT scan and ultrasound. To make a long story short, I had to have my gall-bladder removed. After surgery, I was given a prescription for percocet. I took 2 of them, cause I was in a great deal of pain. I'd never a narcotic before...ever.

Well, it was that very first prescription that I became addicted. I quickly figured out that if I took 2 percocets, I was wonder-woman - super-mom - the best wife in town. I had so much energy, was in a GREAT mood all the time (euphoria) and was loving life!!

I went to my family doctor and told him that I had those pills from my gall-bladder op, and explained that they took away my back pain. I have a herniated disc (L5) which affects my sciatica but opted not to have the surgery (I did physiotherapy instead). I was always against pain meds cause I'd read that they were SO addictive and dangerous. I really don't know what changed my mind. I took the percocets cause I'd just had surgery, but I didn't think it would lead to the life I live now. I was in denial for the longest time.

So, basically, I lied through my teeth to get more pills. That went on for about a year, when my doctor decided I should take Oxycontin - my liver was starting to show minimal damage from all the tylenol (acetaminophen) so he put me on Oxy's.

I had heard that if you break the oxy's, you can get a WAY better high. Well, I did, and thats where I started to go down-hill.

I would get my script from my family doctor, but eventually, that wasn't enough so I turned to the streets. I also took them from my step-mom. She got 90 Oxy 80's a month from her doctor (as well as 200 percocets). I would deliver them to a dealer here in Toronto. I soon started taking them for myself and just paid her. I told her I knew someone who could get more money then the guy she originally sold them to. So, I ate them like candy, pretended to sell them to someone else and paid her for them.

I stopped one day and realized "OMG, I took 10 Oxy 80's today!!!

Now I'm going to Rehab (Monday) cause I tried to taper (with the help of my doctor), I tried detox, I tried NA meetings, you name it, I tried it. I just couldn't do it.

I approached my husband three weeks ago and told him everything. We went to my doctor, got a referral for Homewood in Guelph, Ontario (Rehab facility) and this is where I am now.

Listen to me, you can do this. You just have to decide what you want. Do you want to live your life counting pills/money, lying to your family and friends, second guessing your every move, etc? Stop now before it gets worse, and I promise you, it will only get worse.

I firmly believe that an addict will not quit until they are ready, however sometimes we need that push to believe it for ourselves.

If there's anything else I can help you with, just ask. I've left alot out, but there's only 24 hours in a day lol. This is the jist of it.

My name is "emsmom" and I'm an addict. I'm going to Rehab on Monday cause I want my life back. I want to be the best mom and wife, and I want to be me again.

Stay strong countrywife, you can do this.

Love emsmom
Hey countrywife,

I know that feeling...

When you're fed up with everything, can't even get that high anymore, you hate lying to people - so you decide you're going to do this. You're going to quit this beast and get your life back!

In order for this to happen, you have to be honest. Honest with your doctor, husband, and anyone else you'll be leaning on for support throughout your recovery.

I forgot to mention that I doctor shopped too. I went to my family doc (original prescribing doctor) and when that wasn't enough, I went to my dentist (had legit pain so he gave me percocets) my gyno (I had an issue last year so she gave me percocets), I even went to Emergency at my local hospital (guess what?? They gave me percocets).

Its so easy to fall into a bad habit. Regardless of addiction to pills, look at our daily lives? We like a certain kind of ice-cream, so we keep eating til the whole box is gone. You see, we are creatures of habit and if that habit makes us feel good we'll keep doing it. Thats where addictive tendencies come in. Sometimes we don't even realize we have addictive tendencies, then we take that first pill and "Wow, that was awesome. How can I get more?"

You sound like me countrywife, so I'm going to tell you what worked for me. I looked at myself in the mirror and didn't like the person staring back at me. I decided I had to tell those who would help me (hubby and doctor). It took awhile to come clean to them cause I knew when I did, it would all be over. For a long time, I said I wanted to quit, but didn't want to stop taking pills. Thats what made it worse for me - I just kept taking more and more, until I realized I was taking 800mg of Oxycontin at one time.

Make your decision, tell someone, and get a plan into action. You can do this. We can all do it, we just need that kick in the butt sometimes :)

I wish you a lovely day, let me know how you're feeling :)

Love and hugs,