I think you should go and see a Psychologist or a Psychiatrist. I have seen both and they truly work. Psychiatrists can prescribe anti depressants.....and along with that, they can have talking sessions, to get out in the open whats bothering you. A Psychologist has talking sessions, but cannot prescribe medication. Also, your regular family doctor can prescribe Paxil, Zoloft, and anti-depressants in that family........but he won't be able to council you........so take your pick!
I'm speaking from experience....I'm on Paxil because I was very depressed and had panic attacks......and It has helped me tremendously.
I wish you luck and god bless.
Take care and hold your head up high.