Nothing new here - just another addict writing to tell you about how he has pretty much ruined his life with painkiller addiction and wants desperately to quit. I'll start at the beginning. I had my wisdom teeth out about 5 years ago and they prescribed me the basic 5/325 Percocet to handle to pain. This is the first time in my life I was introduced to the drug. What can I say I loved the feeling I got from the pills. From that point on I would take the drug recreationally with friends when someone could get them. Which was maybe a couple times a month? No big deal and that lasted up until the past year or so. But almost overnight there seemed liked there was a huge influx of Perc suppliers’. Oh the joy! So I would purchase about 10 (10/325) pills and they would last me a couple weeks. Maybe even longer I was taken only 3 to 4 a week. No big deal still. All of a sudden one of my suppliers told me he ran out of the normal percs and that all he had were these 30mg roxycontins. This was about 6 months ago. I was king of nervous about taking them at first but I tried them and experienced the same high (Obviously because they contain the same drug as percs) and I was hooked. Problem was that no longer was it a recreational hobby I did a couple days a week. I started taking the ******************** every day, and I was hooked. For the past 2 months or so I have been on the roxycontin 30's every day. Usually just 1 a day but everyday. Let me tell you I live for the pills. I have sacrificed a lot. My friends, my family, my wife has separated and took our 2 year old son, I have lost the money I spent on the drugs plus the money I have spent foolishly while being "high" on the pills. Its a miracle I still have a job but that wont last long when they find out that I don’t do ********************, I just watch the clock until five so that I can go home and pop a pill. Bottom line is I want to quit (like everyone else here) but I don’t know how to do it by myself. I don’t know if I am past the point where I can do it cold turkey, I always tell myself okay after this week I will quit, I think I have been telling myself that for the past month. I don’t have health insurance so going through a doctor is not an option. I pray for the power to wean myself off this drug. Any advice or help is much appreciated, thank you!