I have recently posted about my fiance being an alcoholic, now i need some advice for myself as well but please read my other post too that is a very hard situation im going thru as well. I started methadone about 3 months ago due to an opiate addiction i was taking opiates for 8 years i didnt get them illegally i always got them prescribed as i have pain issues and multiple surgeries. I was on Vicodin, percocet, lorcet. And i was first on the vicodin 10 mg. and i took about 12 of those a day then i started the lorcet and that was about 22 a day then i moved to the percocet and that also was about 22-25 a day and my pain doctor also helps addicts and he had asked me if i felt i had a problem and i finally admitted it to him. and told him how much i was REALLY taking he thought i only took 8 a day. But he put me on methadone for my addiction and for my pain problems and i know i am addicted to the methadone as well i will admit that some days i take way more than i am supposed to i am supposed to take it 4 times a day but sometimes i take 8 and then i feel guilty. but 4 a day isnt enough for my pain sometimes, i have explained this to my doc but he dosent want to increase my dose. which i understand. but what do i do? i have heard alot of bad things about this medication and pharmacists treat me like crap when i go to get them filled. I went to one pharmacy and they tried to tell me they couldnt fill it because it was too early, which it was early by one day, but yet they always tell you to get your script filled before you run out and i looked into this and by law it can be 3 days early on a schedule 2 and i talked to my insurance company about this as well. And he yelled at me and said it was too early my insurance wouldnt cover it which i knew was a lie bcuz i spoke to my inxurance company. Then i asked if i could just pay cash then and he said no to that as well! I also had 2 other non narcotic scripts with me and he said he would fill those for me in 15 minutes and i had my 3 yr old who gets restless and since we got into an argument over the methadone he took like 45 minutes to fill ithe others, people who came after me got there scripts first! i told my doc about this and he said people will treat you different when they kno you are on it, and it is true! They all think i was on heroin and even if that was the case which it isnt why do they gotta be so mean. Anyways, is this a good drug, i want to have another child in the future what will i do when i get pregnant? will on have to be on this for the rest of my life. i have heard it referred to as "the demon drug" and that freaks me out i didnt know much about it anyone have a bad experience or good experience? please share your opinions and stories on methadone. Thanks!