Quote from Tanki:Well I am PTSD free and have been for a couple of months now.
IT took me 8 years, and it's about time.
I still get triggers, still have body memories but it's easier now to deal with.
What my turning point for me was when I was able to literally say that I REGRET that this happened to me, doing that you are not looking back in the past saying to yourself it was my fault I was raped, It was my fault that I made him hurt me, I was in the wrong. Being able to regret it freed me from feeling the shame, guilt and fear that I felt. Major turning point for me.
I did however have a weird dream the other night that had me thinking about it all day.
I still have triggers but I am able to deal with them without fearing it. I always write it down now.
I'm free from the 9 guys that did me wrong from the years of 1996-2001. I am still hyperviligant and sometimes still get hyperarousal. But i'm ok.
I have a wonderful bf of 3 yrs and since i've been with him I haven't had anymore uncomfortable situations or potenitally dangerous situations.
I am still weary of others, I always will be but I have an alarm that goes off when I see someone on the street warning me to stay away, I don't see it as someone who is going to hurt me, follow me, and do a home invasion. I had that thought a few weeks ago. But I see it as a warning, something that will protect me like a piemeter.
I know I haven't been around lately, alot has been going on and it's all been postive.
Congradulations! Good for you. I'm still in the healing mode, trying to get all this energy out of my nervous system to get over hyperviligance and just the tremors. I'm doing really well with the panic attacks, but still working with trauma. I know these things take time but got a book regarding car accidents and hoping this will speed up the process. I'm in therapy and have been since the end of March. I'm not as bad, getting better but still would like to feel totally like myself again. I take 10 mg. of Prozac, they'd like me to take more but won't do it now. I have Xanax and take a pinch every now and then when things get a little rough. Glad again to hear you have had wonderful breathrough!