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Postpartum Depression (PPD) board

I was hoping there was a board for post-partum depression Since there isn't I came here.

Just to share a bit about myself, I am a 22 yr old mother of two. My son is 2.5 and my daughter is 8 months. My first baby was unplanned when I was 19. Lucily for me I was already planning to marry my then-boyfriend (now my husband), so we started our family a little earlier than anticipated.

After my son was born I gained a lot of weight (like way bigger than I have ever been in my life) and I would get really cranky and depressed around my periods, like really severe pms. My doctor prescribed low-dose prozac to even out my moods. I have struggled with my depression since I was 12, but I found ways to deal with it that did not require meds. I didn't want my husband or my son to have to suffer through my mood swings, so I took my prozac. I just want to add that my aggression was always directed at my husband, I didn't think about hurting my son or anything like that, although sometimes I wished that I hadn't had him.

When I got pregnant again I had to go off my prozac, which was ok, since my hormones were kind of better anyway. After my daughter was born I felt better than ever, and I haven't had to go back on prozac at this point.

The thing that troubles me is that sometimes I still get feelings of irritation and regret towards my kids. I don't think about hurting them or anything like that, but I sometimes regret that I got pregnant to begin with. I have so much responsibility, and even when I get a break from them for a day or a weekend, I come back feeling like I would rather take a perminant vacation. I miss having freedom and getting to spend time with my husband alone. Our son was born just a few months after we were married, and before that our realtionship was long-distance, so we never really got to just be together, as a couple, getting used to each other.

I know that I am so lucky, I have a wonderful life, a wonderful husband, and beautiful children. But lots of days I feel like the littlest thing just makes me lose my patience. We don't believe in spanking, ever, but it seems like I am always yelling at my 2.5 yr old because he is very active and we live in a little tiny appartment right now and he knows just how to make me crazy. It is winter where we are and it has been REALLY cold here and the roads aren't great so I don't take them out much and I think my son gets a little pent up because he can't run around.

I am afraid that I am going to traumatise him for life by hollering at him, but he never seems to listen otherwise. We also use time outs when he has a tantrum, but that only works sometimes. Everyone always goes on and on about how well behaved he is, but I am afraid it is only because he doesn't want to get yelled at.

I don't feel depressed, just annoyed a lot, so I am not sure what to do about it. Sorry this post is soooooooo long, hopefully someone other there can relate and maybe offer some advice. Take care.