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I've picked at my hair since I was about 12 years old (I'm 43 now). Started with pulling out my scalp hair - had a huge bald spot. Try going through that in jr high and high school. I also started picking out my eyelashes and eyebrows to the point where there wasn't anything left to pick at. I also had other "rituals" that I felt required to do, although the picking was the most obvious. Parents never took me to the dr because that would mean something might be "wrong" with their little girl and we can't have that, now can we? :rolleyes:

When I was about 16 or 17, I discovered beads - little tiny seed beads. I'd mix them all together, sort them with a fine needle, and then mix them together again. Found it had a similar soothing "picking" effect. Also found relief through peeling paint and wallpaper, tearing small bits of paper, anything small, nitpicky and requiring detailed finger work. Guess I stumbled upon do-it-yourself CBT.

To this day, I still find it relaxing to sort things, put stuff in order, etc. It doesn't have to be clean, but it has to be organized, dagnabbit! There are piles of stuff all over the house, but I know what's in each and every pile and can tell you exactly where a specific document or item is (which pile and how far down in that pile). I'm also a packrat married to another packrat, which doesn't help any.

Even as an adult, I've never told the drs or counselors about this (too embarassed). While I no longer pick out my scalp hair, I still pick at my eyebrows and eyelashes when anxious, although to a lesser degree than before. Split ends are the source of a lot of "fun". I've also always bitten my nails, picked at dead skin, cuticles, scabs, any kind of defect on my skin and scalp, but not to the point of keeping something from healing for months.

I realize this is all part of my OCD. Drs have put me on Elavil and Prozac at different times for other problems. Since I tend to be hypersensitive to medication, the side effects were worse than the original problem, so I stopped.

To be honest, I think it's at the point now where I'm willing to live with it.