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Lyme Disease board

aqua, I'm new to the group and this is my first post. I know EXACTLY how you feel and I'm sure it's MUCH worse at your age. I'm 47, been "disabled" for at least 4 yrs., and I actually went thru hell all my life due to a birth defect called Poland's Syndrome. I was born missing my left pectoral muscle and some ribs on my left side so I've had more than 30 reconstructive plastic surgeries which resulted in MAJOR infections & complications that weakened my immune system.

Then I had what I'm almost positive was a bite from a brown recluse spider in May '03 and I also broke out in a horrible case of hives about 6 months before that. The spider bite was the "last straw" for my body but I don't know when the Lyme disease actually started. It could've been at the time of the hives breakout or it could've been even earlier, but I think it just stayed dormant until that spider bite. I somehow got thru a lot of surgeries and infections before my body finally gave up.

I had a MISdiagnosis of fibromyalgia for about 3 and a half yrs. and I finally got a positive Lyme test result from IGeneX in Dec. '06. Unfortunately, I now think I had Lyme disease before the spider bite and maybe even before the hives. I don't know how long I've had it and I used to be a regular blood donor to the Red Cross! They used to call me because they wanted my B negative blood and even if I got Lyme disease from the case of hives in October '02, I know I gave blood that year at Christmas time, before the spider bite. I wonder how many other people are passing on Lyme disease the same way because they don't know they have it!!!

My family doc tried 5 months of oral doxycycline after we got the positive diagnosis but it did no good whatsoever. Now he just keeps giving me pain meds and he actually told me today that I have to try harder to gain control of my life!! I couldn't believe he said that. I've gained 50 friggin' lbs. since I got sick and that's just making me even more miserable. I NEVER had to worry about gaining weight before, even at the age of 43! I'm not lazy; I'M SICK!!! Ever since I was a teenager, I weighed somewhere in the range of 100-115, and maybe hit 120 once or twice in all those years. I now weigh almost 170 and I just can't believe it. I never thought I'd weigh this much and I don't even have the strength to go for a walk down the street without gasping for air from weakness and pain.

Also, I live in a small town, far from any good doctors or specialists, and I'm getting weaker and suffering in more pain every single day. I've had bad reactions to almost every antibiotic I've tried and I'm almost afraid to try long-term IV antibiotics because I've had so many bad reactions already. I lost hearing in my right ear from IV vancomycin in '93 and, over the years, I've had bad reactions to Cipro, Levaquin, Penicillin, Sulfa, Vancomycin, Erythromycin, and probably others I can't even think of right now.

I'm like you with the writing. I can still write and I type fast but most of what I do is VENT. I need to be writing a book or 2 or 3. I'm just so depressed and frustrated. I've taken Prozac off and on but I hate taking anti-depressants because they make me feel like a zombie. I KNOW I think more clearly without them but I also know I get depressed and angry and frustrated without them. I don't know which is worse. I need what is left of my brain to try and fight this. I just hope it's not too late. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW LONG I'VE HAD IT!! That's the worst part. How much damage has been done to my body at this point? Have the spirochetes already done irreversible damage? Is there any way to really find out?

I'm open to advice from anyone who can tell me what my best options are at this point. Just don't tell me I need to "try harder". I can barely get thru a day now, as it is. I need hope and a miracle. Thanks to everyone who has taken the time to read all this. My medical history is a huge disaster and it keeps getting worse. I didn't even say anything about my opinions of breast implants. That's another very long story. I tried them because of my birth defect and they have been a big part of what led to this disabled mess of a body I have now.

That's enough for tonight. I'm just stressing myself out. Good night all.

Dianne :confused: