I am not sure what pdoc or tdoc is but I have seen many psychiatrists and therapists and just about can't afford it anymore. I go to my family physician now and he helps me with my meds. I am on abilify, remeron, and colonpin. I have been going through different things for six years. First it was panic disorder, depression, anxiety disorder, and now bipolar. I am tired of ruining my life and scared of my actions mostly. And worried about my children having it. Thanks for the reply. I believe my sister is a lost cause, she doesn't have anything to do with me at all. My mother is around but not here. It is very hard because they were always the ones to help me and now I can't talk to them. My husband is wonderful but if I keep on, I think I will lose him as well.