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Depression board


gosh, i havent been on this board for some time... been mostly posting on the SI board, but lately, i havent been doing that either...

i have reached another low... i dont know if it is worse than my last big one, but its pretty bad...

i have returned to my old studying habits and have thus started to fail yet more classes... you would have thought that i would have already learned my lesson from my previous school... i try to do well, but my mind says, "camilla, your probably gonna end up offing yourself anyways, why study, why go to class..."...i wish i could stop this thinking... i am hating myself even more, cutting myself more, and have started to smoke pot... i just want to give up... i have already screwed up my spring semester, i didnt want to go back to school, but my mother made me because of financial aid, so... and now she wants me to get a job.. .i know i need one since my mother cant work due to chemo, but i can barely handle my home life, my depression, and school, as well as a "social life" if yiu can even call it that...

they kept increasing my meds, but they make me feel weird, so instead tehy put me on effexor and ridiperal... but i think that i dodnt give the zoloft and seroquel a chance, so perhaops i wills tay on them some more... that is, if i start taking them... they still scare me... all anti d's do now... for some reason... i feel so fake on them...

i meet with the therapist on tuesday, after she canceled our last appt, and it was only the second, and thus resceduled it two weeks later... so i havent seen her for a month... i forgot what time it is at and am too afraid to call and ask... but i guess i must...

i just dont know anymore... my life has spun out of control... i odnt know what to do... :(
i just dont know anymore... my life has spun out of control... i odnt know what to do... :(


How long have you been on the Zoloft and Seroquel? You DO have to give the meds a chance TO work. I know it is hard to deal with your therapist cancelling your appointment, because you NEED to talk with someone at that moment. Is there a crisis hotline that you can call when you are feeling the urge to hurt yourself? Someone will talk you down to a calmer state. You ARE dealing with a lot. Do not let anyone tell you that you are not! With your mother being ill and going to college, you ARE under a burden that you probably wish someone could lift from your shoulders. And, it is OK sometimes to feel sorry for yourself, but do not HARM yourself. Let yourself get healthy. You DO have positives. You recognize the fact that you needed help, and you have attempted to get it. Please realize that there IS a reason that you feel the way you do. Maybe you are spinning out of control because you do not feel that you can do anything to help yourself or your mother, but YOU are helping yourself and your mother...just by being in this world. And with posting your feelings here, you help each of us to help someone else. Please post again soon.