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Hello again :)

Hubby just left for the office - now I get my home office back lol.

I'll start from the beginning...

4 years ago, I had a gall-bladder attack, went to the hospital, had a CT scan and ultrasound. To make a long story short, I had to have my gall-bladder removed. After surgery, I was given a prescription for percocet. I took 2 of them, cause I was in a great deal of pain. I'd never a narcotic before...ever.

Well, it was that very first prescription that I became addicted. I quickly figured out that if I took 2 percocets, I was wonder-woman - super-mom - the best wife in town. I had so much energy, was in a GREAT mood all the time (euphoria) and was loving life!!

I went to my family doctor and told him that I had those pills from my gall-bladder op, and explained that they took away my back pain. I have a herniated disc (L5) which affects my sciatica but opted not to have the surgery (I did physiotherapy instead). I was always against pain meds cause I'd read that they were SO addictive and dangerous. I really don't know what changed my mind. I took the percocets cause I'd just had surgery, but I didn't think it would lead to the life I live now. I was in denial for the longest time.

So, basically, I lied through my teeth to get more pills. That went on for about a year, when my doctor decided I should take Oxycontin - my liver was starting to show minimal damage from all the tylenol (acetaminophen) so he put me on Oxy's.

I had heard that if you break the oxy's, you can get a WAY better high. Well, I did, and thats where I started to go down-hill.

I would get my script from my family doctor, but eventually, that wasn't enough so I turned to the streets. I also took them from my step-mom. She got 90 Oxy 80's a month from her doctor (as well as 200 percocets). I would deliver them to a dealer here in Toronto. I soon started taking them for myself and just paid her. I told her I knew someone who could get more money then the guy she originally sold them to. So, I ate them like candy, pretended to sell them to someone else and paid her for them.

I stopped one day and realized "OMG, I took 10 Oxy 80's today!!!

Now I'm going to Rehab (Monday) cause I tried to taper (with the help of my doctor), I tried detox, I tried NA meetings, you name it, I tried it. I just couldn't do it.

I approached my husband three weeks ago and told him everything. We went to my doctor, got a referral for Homewood in Guelph, Ontario (Rehab facility) and this is where I am now.

Listen to me, you can do this. You just have to decide what you want. Do you want to live your life counting pills/money, lying to your family and friends, second guessing your every move, etc? Stop now before it gets worse, and I promise you, it will only get worse.

I firmly believe that an addict will not quit until they are ready, however sometimes we need that push to believe it for ourselves.

If there's anything else I can help you with, just ask. I've left alot out, but there's only 24 hours in a day lol. This is the jist of it.

My name is "emsmom" and I'm an addict. I'm going to Rehab on Monday cause I want my life back. I want to be the best mom and wife, and I want to be me again.

Stay strong countrywife, you can do this.

Love emsmom