I have never felt such bad back pain, even after my initial injury to my back. They could give a **** less. They say it is gas, I guess they could be right. But I dont think gas ever killed anyone and I feel like death. I feel empty, kids are trying to help, just really want to cuddle with hubby. He has been working extra hours cause the time he took off for me. I feel ok emotionally, just would like to have more drugs to take. I have 2 xanax left, I took most of them in the hospital so I could just sleep and not have to deal with the pain. So I have my refil of ultram form other doc, doesnt really help with the pain. I guess its time to quit, right. I know that is the case. I also know that if I was top get a refil of vicodin, Id have to pay for it anyhow. So its ok. Just still stuck on the fact, thathe didnt give me anyhting to go home with.