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Im at a loss for words. I think Im at a loss for everything. Ive been in bed for the last week, jusp moping. My hubby asked when my motivation was gna come back. Well Im back taking vcodin, ultram, xanax and ativan or pretty much anthing I can get my hands on. I just wanna be numb. Completley and totally numb, maybe even dead. I just cant stand it anymore. I miss him so much, and I hate seeing my kids hurt. My daughter was turned inside out today, she wouldnt even let me give her a hug. She hates the world and has every right too. I really thought it was getting better, just always worse, whats the point anymore???? Really life does suck, ***.:confused: