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I have been reading these boards a long time and have posted a few times back when banker and a few others were on here.Well I justed wanted to share my thoughts and experiences thus far on all this. I was addicted to hydrocodone alot of it too 400mgs a day plus and then went on sub well the doc left me on the sub for over a year and yes i felt much better but needed off the sub and didnt feel like i could get off it alone and also was a big benzo user well i just couldnt do it on my own soI went to treatment Betty Ford and them getting me off of sub I was on 24mgs a day alot well within 8 days i was off it tapered and clonodine and valium and had about 4-5 days of feeling kinda bad not unbearable anyways learned about the 12 step way and came home and didnt use it. Relapsed for 2-3 weeks and used the sub again for about 3-4 weeks and got off very little trouble but was attending meetings everyday and still am. Now my point of this is to hopefully help another opiade addicted person on here that the NA/AA way works I hated it at first but now 1 month later I cannot wait to go everyday alchohol wasnt my thing but that doesnt matter to me i have been able to except the fact any chemical for me is NO GOOD :wave: and I feel better now than I did when i came out of treatment and imagine my wife kinda likes me again and am even starting to like myself.
I know some people here dont like the meeting idea and that is ok If this helps even one person it was worth it.We cannot do this on selfwill alone we need help and you can find that help just pray for it. :angel:
I pray for everyone on this board alot and wish everyone the best and if i can be of some help just let me know i have a ton of SUB experience.
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I have been reading these boards a long time and have posted a few times back when banker and a few others were on here.Well I justed wanted to share my thoughts and experiences thus far on all this. I was addicted to hydrocodone alot of it too 400mgs a day plus and then went on sub well the doc left me on the sub for over a year and yes i felt much better but needed off the sub and didnt feel like i could get off it alone and also was a big benzo user well i just couldnt do it on my own soI went to treatment Betty Ford and them getting me off of sub I was on 24mgs a day alot well within 8 days i was off it tapered and clonodine and valium and had about 4-5 days of feeling kinda bad not unbearable anyways learned about the 12 step way and came home and didnt use it. Relapsed for 2-3 weeks and used the sub again for about 3-4 weeks and got off very little trouble but was attending meetings everyday and still am. Now my point of this is to hopefully help another opiade addicted person on here that the NA/AA way works I hated it at first but now 1 month later I cannot wait to go everyday alchohol wasnt my thing but that doesnt matter to me i have been able to except the fact any chemical for me is NO GOOD :wave: and I feel better now than I did when i came out of treatment and imagine my wife kinda likes me again and am even starting to like myself.
I know some people here dont like the meeting idea and that is ok If this helps even one person it was worth it.We cannot do this on selfwill alone we need help and you can find that help just pray for it. :angel:
I pray for everyone on this board alot and wish everyone the best and if i can be of some help just let me know i have a ton of SUB experience.
D


Congrats, I noticed that you were taking benzos also.
I recently got clean of the pain meds but had bad anxiety, my dr put me on Klonopin, he rxed me 1mg 2 times a day, I have never taken that amount. I'm currently taking about .5mg a day ".25 x 2", my problem is that i seem to not get below that amount. I want off of this last thing ASAP, Can you or anyone help, Kev
Hey ggrl yes I remeber you and am very glad you remeber me I think I was jst starting the SUB when I came to these boards.Well it seemed like abot 1.5 to 2 yrs I was on the SUB and I also abused it was suppose to be on 8mg a day was taking up to 3 of those orange 8mg a day along with 2-3 10mg ambien and 4mg xanax every night talk about messed up and insanity THATS INSANITY at its finest.Olmost lost my beautiful wife fabulous little 8yr old girl big fancy home,dog,job you know the drill but by the grace of god and a little pushing by my wife and mom I ended up in the california desrt at betty ford center. It took olmost 2 weeks of them gently weaning me off the SUB they used bupanorphin and valium,and something else to get me off all the drugs i was on and when I was off everything I really didnt feel to bad just a some minor opiate stuff sneezing cold etc for about 3 days and BOY was I a winey baby those 3 days I am sure ya/ll know what I mean.
Then after 30 very HOT long days in palm springs I got to go home to houston and Guess what everything they told me to do like go to meatings everyday get a sponsor call my alumni contact read and pray ...do you think i did any of that NOPE....not even one thing and within 3-4 weeks had relapsed back on the hydro after all that SUB for 2yrs and a rehab center right back where i started and to boot was subject to random testing at work now for a year INSANE HUH! even did some coke thinking it would get me off the hydro,s UGGGH SICK SICK THINKING. Anyways went to a new sub doc who is 22yrs sober he put me on the 2mg pills and i started attending AA meetings didnt like the NA too much younger crowd and not alot of clean time there and told my wife i would do 90 meetings in 90 days other wise she was going to leave me oh and also became addicted to internet gambling lost tons of money,so went to my meetings and hated the first 3-4 times then something started to happen I started to like them started to feel like a whole person a good kind loving big ol teddy bear that I really am also asked this old guy to be my sponsor and he said yes and he is awsome. So today I can say I am chemically free and havent felt this good in i dont know how long.I see my wife differently I can be nice to her just becouse not becouse I lied to her and am covering something up and the joy my daughter brings now unexplainable, the blessings that I still have my life and my family i will not trade for anything in this world.
My life today living with the stigma That I am an addict/alchoholic is just fine with me because I am a good loving man and god loved me when i was using and he still does.I am so glad to see you are doing well and hope others on this board find what will make them free of this AWFUL STUFF that we have all discovered that has destroyed so much inside of us and all of our loved ones.Its a great day today to be free.... ;) ;)