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I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way and unfortunately now it involves my sister. She announced at Christmas that she was pregant with the first baby in our family. I come from small family (just two girls) and we are very close. I was so surprised at my reaction to her news. I thought I would have been happy for her and I wasn't in the least. I felt sorry for myself, angry and nauseated at the grammy award winning toast she and her husband made in introducing this event. At the time I had been going through alot of medical problems having come down with a severe case of TMJ. I was on Valium and mega ibuprofin and the martini probably didn't help either. It was extremely emotional for me and remains that way. I have a hard time talking to her on the phone(long distance) and even though I really want the best for her it is still so hard to bear.
I try to remember that we all have our own lives to live and all of our experiences are going to be different whether we like it or not. I try to focus on my hope for the future and remember that when my time comes it will be so well deserved. The negative energy is so unhealthy for you and your IF experience. I pray alot and dream. I talk to my dh and ask for alot of hugs.
I wish you the best and don't feel alone. I struggle with these feelings every day.
P.S. did I mention she only had 1/2 of an ovary. Only been married a year and her husband is 50. She's 38. Unbelievable. I've got both my ovaries , no health problems(so far) and my husband is 42. (I'm 40). Ugh!!! lizzie