I know everyone says it is a huge part of recovery and also not thinking about the illness. I am a hugely pessimistic person to begin with and I can not for the life of me think positive I am trying sooo hard. And I cant get my illness off my mind been playing video games and everything to divert my attention. And on top of my crappy blip got hit with anxiety today and had to take a valium which I hadn't taken for more than a week so feeling depressed about that as well. I keep thinking if someone comes on that had labs/vn for like 4 months and recovered man wouldn't that raise my spirits and give me hope but wont happen. Any advice on how to take my mind off it??Does this get easiers as the years go by??