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oh dear Cyc,
you sound like your in a right state! Reading your post brought back memories of the way I was 6 years ago I had not long picked up sticks and moved my mentally ill husband back to the east coast so he was close to his parents. I'd been away in Perth for 5 years after our daughter died aged 3 months in 1996. He was never the same after that.

I didn't get to grieve. I payed for that after I moved back here. Without warning I fell to peices. I was at the end of my tether after looking after him for 7 years. there hadn't been any chance for me to break down. The Marriage, or what was left of it fell apart and so did I. that was in 2002. I spent the next 18 months in hell. I was tired all the time. So tired, So exhausted.

When I thought things couldn't get worse, they did when I injured myself in 2004 @ work. then. the rapid Cycling started with a vengence. I had been working as a butcher in a large poultry processing plant. One of my supervisors gossiped about my newly Dxd Bipolar 2. I was already in severe physical and emotional pain already and now it was added to by rumors saying that I was unsafe with a knife and that everyone was afraid of me. So untrue.

Things came to a real head when one night, 2 days after starting on Valium I flipped out and Self harmed my left arm with a thankfully blunt pair of Scissors. I was immediately put under the care of a wonderful P doc who overhauled my meds. That was 3 years ago. I don't work anymore but I'm stable and reasonably content. I have a wonderful partner who Saw me through it all.
This place is full of supportive lovely people. So your never alone.