wow, sounds like you had quite a rough night. i have been there too...i am still in the midst of whatever this junk is.
i had taken some antibiotics for a supsected ear infection when all this started in june---i had a horrible allergic reaction and ended up in the ER. That has got to be one of the worst experiences of my life.....and on top of the dizzy off feeling. I have never had anxiety or panic attacks. the next day, after i got out, i had to rush back because i thought i was having another reaction to some other medicine they gave me----but i think it was actually a panic attack in hindsight. they just told me i had labs and there was absolutely nothing i could do about it. needless to say with the hospital visits and my horrible dizziness and nausea, i couldn't really eat much for almost a week--i lost 10 pounds, that i couldn't afford to lose, so i am still "underweight" for my height. I was normal and at a healthy weight for my height before, maybe 2 pounds under. Getting back my strength and trying to eat with this nausea was absolutely horrible. i could barely walk to the bathroom. i didn't have enough strength to sit up in bed to eat for the most part of 2 weeks....i had horrible nasty dreadlock hair from not being able to wash it....ewwwww....i know :(
a week later after the first visits, i had to go back because i was on some new meds and i wanted to make sure i wasn't going to have a reaction, as well as have my dizziness checked out again, and some heart palpitations...and fast beating.
all in all, i was given xanax and valium. i took xanax twice a day for about a month in july and slowed down to 1/4 of a .25mg at night. i didn't want to be controlled by a stupid drug, and i know how addicting xanax can be. it took some time to taper off it, but i've been xanax free for about 3 1/2 weeks now--and let me tell you...i actually don't feel as depressed since i haven't been on it. strange enough, i know. i haven't had to use it once since then, however, i have thought about it in a few weird anxiety moments of feeling down---but i tried so hard to stop and succeeded, that i said hell no! not that if you need it, not to take it, but i just feel better without it at this point. i do think it takes slowly coming off of them to actually get off without too much anxiety. WITHDRAWALS ARE NOT FUN......AT ALL....i know.
and actually, since i've been off the xanax, it seems like my "reality" has improved over the last 3 weeks, and i am feeling a little better now...still really weird vision issues, as well as balance trouble, but nothing like the beginning. i still am upset and have my crying fits, but nothing like even when i was on xanax and during the beginning of this.
This is what really depresses me now. as of now, i have been to numerous doctors, all who have no clue of what is really wrong with me.
** ER doctor--thought Labs and said pretty much nothing i can do.
**ENT---thought it was sinus related first visit and handed me nose spray, second visit thought Central nervous system and referred me to a neurologist.
**Neurologist----thought i may have MAV and prescribed Neurontin for migraines, and i have used it once (hated it). i don't even have a history of migraines either. he did a b-12 test, and it was on the low end---i have been treating that with shots and sublinguals, all which have raised it some.
**Neurotologist---absolute looney and he thought i MAY have meniere's...i don't have ANY hearing loss and my dizzies aren't spells, its 24/7...it's like he didn't even know as much as i had researched. he gave me a diuretic and said not to eat much salt......obviously, i was pissed and didn't follow his advice.
finally, after many other general dr's for other health issues....all which have said i have ETD and keep giving me nose spray, i have found one that is actually wanting to fix me and has a full interest. he did full blood work, which came back----as the nurse said---almost the best she's seen in a while. ( i thought, then why the hell do i feel so bad?!?!?!?) . he has referred me to an allergy specialist, another neurotologist, as well as physical therapy--which i start tomorrow.
that is a sum of my horror story....i am still dealing with a lot of it, and just so you know....YOU ARE NOT ALONE AT ALL!!!!!!!!! it may seem that way with family and friends, because they have absolutely no idea the hell we are going through....but you aren't some freak and all of us know that!!!:D
sorry for the long response.....i just want you to know that i totally feel your pain and depression in all of this. but you will feel better....i am slowly gaining that....:)
my prayers are with you, and all of us:angel: keep pluggin away and FIGHT this crap out....use the force;)