:) hi guys I am new to this whole boards thing but I see me in all of you. I have been taking vicodin for years and years after a car accident. It is to the point that I take it to function normally. I have been off of vicodin for a few days now only because i have ran out and totally used up all my resources. Doctors only want to give you so much and I am sick of buying it off the street. The truth is if i had some right now i would take a whole bunch to make up for time lost. Is that sad? Yes it is. I want to get my life together and i dont want a pill to make me feel good inside and normal. It has become my security blanket. Everytime my life seems to be crashing down, which is a lot i depend on my vicodin to take that pain away. I am in a relationship now that is crazy ups and downs and i think vicodin keeps me sane sometimes and without it i could not endure what i feel. I have to admit though that we all seem the same in a similar way. I feel its terrible that a bottle of pills can brighten up my day and make me feel secure when i should be making my self feel secure. So its been a few days and i feel ok with things,well actually i feel edgy and ready to blow my stack, but reading what you guys say makes me feel better even though i have no idea who any of you are. So if any body wants to talk with me i will be totally open to it. I am gonna try this time I made it for awhile now and i have to get my life in order. So tell me guys when your not taking pills how do you deal with things in a normal way. Once i beat this thing i am gonna turn my life around. So to anybody who reads this thanks because your words, as crazy as they are are me too.