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Thought I would introduce myself. I have been lurking on this board for almost a year and have finally gotten the nerve up to share myself. I have really admired many of you guys for your honesty and vulnerablility on this board. I am struggling with pain pill addiction, namely Vicodin.

I starting using drugs in high school and college, experimenting with just about everything. I would use painkillers when I could get them which was just on occation. I knew I really liked them but wasn't worried at the time because my access to them was so limited. Definitely knew that I had the potential to have a prob. For about the past 10 years I have been a social drinker with very rare drug use.

Then along came the internet and online pharmacies. That's when things got ugly. I am 36 years old, successful, well educated woman and they have brought me to my knees. I wish I had not discovered how easy they are to get. Within a year I went from just a couple to 4-5 at a time, 20+ per day, countless withdrawls, a ton of money and my sanity. I have managed to put weeks together clean but have struggled with stopping long term. I know that I must stop. I have found this board extremely helpful and wanted to "give back" and participate more actively in my own and other people's recovery.