I have been reading your cries for help and I'm captivated. I have recently come to the realization that I am hooked on vicodin, and I'm scared and sickened about it. I have lower back pain from a torn disc, but it's no excuse for me to pop pills. I too liked the way it makes me feel so good! But I've suffered from depression my whole life, and from what I've read in your messages, it sounds like you do, too. My husband downplays my problem (all of them, for that matter) so he's no help to me, either. I don't know how to get off these pills, but from what I'm reading it looks like it's going to be painful! But I suggest you look into getting on anti-depressants, too. I started on Lexapro recently and it's a life-saver for me.