Quote from Mike_NY:I really feel like I want to use a little hydro.
The only thing stopping me right now is will power and the memory of what it leads to.
It's not enough...I need to get back to working the program...man I need a kick in the pants.
Mike I know how you feel. I want some right now too. I am not just saying that either. I have only been off of vikes for 3 weeks. I stopped the subutex over the weekend and the withdrawals are not bad at all but the darn cravings for vicodin are still there. There is a girl that sits next to me at work and she has got a boatload of vikes and she has already asked me if I want some because I was complaining that I have a headache.
I have said no thus far but I am thinking that I should have stayed on the subutex for another week or so. I do not want to go back to that horrid nightmare of taking vicodin and lying and making up stories to get them. I hate myself when I do that. The doctor shopping, the lies, the horrible irritability, the pill counting. I am so sick of this that I could yell.
If the cravings don't go away I am going to call my sub doctor and have him call in another weeks worth of subutex. At least with subutex I can function at work and I can take a very small dose to kill the cravings. I know that some people believe that taking suboxone or subutex is just substituting one drug for another but at least I can function on subutex as with vicodin I could hardly stay awake at work and was always in a terrible mood.
Mike you may want to consider some subutex for some short term craving management. This is tough and nasty I know what those stinking cravings are like. Try to be strong, get up and walk get, to a meeting right now, don't wait. You sound alot like me in that this addiction thing is a pride issue, I don't lie to think of myself as an addict or a junkie or dope fiend.
Stay tough, stay strong the craving won't kill you but the drugs will.