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I am so tempted today!! Not sure why though because I feel really good. I seem to be losing all my resolve. I feel like if I don't take the vicodins I'll go get a drink. Yeah, the other thing I never mentioned on here. I used to drink a pint of vodka a day, in secret. Then my husband found out and I quit drinking. On my own I might add. That's what made me think I could do this.

Not sure why I feel like I "need" something. I guess that's what makes me an "addict" and not "physically dependent" (referring to the thread below), maybe now I do understand.

It's weird though; I feel great, I have energy, I'm not depressed, but I just want it. WHY???? Please help me!! I don't want to want it or anything anymore!!! I don't want to do something stupid and then regret it!! :( Sometimes I hate being me!!!!
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I usually feel the same way as you. I was addicted to vicodin for over two years, but I got treatment for it and was totally clean for about 7 months. After this time, I got my hands on some and continued to use everyday for a little over a month (yet not in the doses that I was taking before).

When I ran out of these, I would casually try to get more, but never seemed to NEED more. It was almost as if one day I randomly just wanted to have them for casual use. It has been about 2.5 months since I've had any, but I feel the urge to want 'something' even though I don't have the physical craving for them.

I used to be a big drinker and have had alcohol problems in the past, but I rarely drink anymore. I do have a problem with abusing alcohol at times, and I am now talking to a counselor about everything.

It has only been two weeks since I have been in these sessions, but I suggest that you go talk to someone about it. I really feel that I am going to learn alot about myself through this and why I behave the way I do. It can't hurt anything to speak with a professional about it...it might not be for everyone, but you should give it a shot.