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I think I might be developing an addiction to Vicodin. I had a foot injury recently and was prescribed it for pain. I had a gut feeling I should not take it since I've had somewhat of a problem with prescription drugs before. Well, I didn't listen to that inner voice and took it anyway.

At first, it just made me pretty high and groggy. But the more often I take it, the more I feel like this groggy type high has developed into a state of almost euphoria. It's not like I'm suddenly hyperactive, but it makes me feel alive (that's the best way I can describe it). I normally have a very flat affect and my baseline mood is usually pretty apathetic... or I'll just feel plain depressed all day. This drug makes me feel what I think healthy human beings should feel like: full of life, seeing the beauty of things, producing thoughts and questions. Another thing I've noticed is that it makes me detach myself from "me" - I am able to comprehend certain things I am going through. It makes me think all those bad emotions, instead of feeling them, which helps me see a way out of some things. It makes me see myself in the 3rd person, as an outsider.

It also makes me pretty eloquent when I am talking to people. I have always been pretty intimidated by authority figures, but now I have absolutely no problem talking and making clear points with my bosses, for example. I usually only take one or two pills a day and have been mixing it with a glass of alcohol. Most of the time I don't crave it and can go for a couple of days without it. But then again, sometimes even when I don't crave it, I just feel like taking it. And I do... which is starting to worry me.

Hope I am not making some sort of "good" propaganda for this drug here. This I-just-feel-like-it feeling makes me think that pretty soon I will not be able to go a day without it. I have seen very close people with drug addictions and I don't want to become that. I don't want it to develop into something even worse... I know how this could develop into an I-need-more-and-more snowball.

But is this really what Vicodin normally makes one feel like? Do you think I am presenting signs that I am already addicted?

Sorry this was so long...
Praan,

Just a thought - it sounds like you are self-medicacating for depression. The symptoms you describe when you're not taking the vicodin sound like depression - Obviously, vicodin isn't a good solution to treat your depression and I think that you're right that you are developing an addiction to the vicodin - you have already displayed addictive behaviors by not taking the medication for the condition it was prescribed. I suggest you get the help of an addiction specialist and/or psychiatrist. I would stop taking the vicodin ASAP as it is likely to become far more difficult to stop later.

It will be hard to do this if you don't get treatment for depression however.