I just have a little info for you. I had an addiction to vicodin and the withdrawl systems are the exact same as a herion addicts. They are the worst thing I have ever experienced. You really can't even function. I ended up putting myself in rehab it was so bad. I too wrote my own scripts and even called my own in for over a year before I got caught. You need to get some help even if it is on an outpatient basis. The problem you might run into in the future is that when you really need them they are not going to work. I am having my gallbladder out on Friday and I have a very high tollerance to vicodin even though it has been 7 years since my addiction. I have to take 4 at one time and that doesn't even do anything for me. It is a horrible thing to be addicted to. I myself don't know what I am going to do because they aren't going to prescribe vicodin for me. They are going to prescribe darvacet and from what I have read those aren't nearly as strong as vicodin. So, I am scared to death that I am going to be in alot of pain and i'm just going to have to deal with it. But, the withdrawls are really bad and include vomiting, not able to sleep, sweating, ect..... You might want to go to your dr. and tell him what your problem is. They did give me something to help with the withdrawl but I can't remember the name. You should be honest with your dr. They are there to help and you are not the first person that this has happened to. Good Luck and remember when you really need them you are going to run into problems. Be honest and get some help. Hope this has helped a little.