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Hello everyone. Things may be improving around here. The Norco addiction is nothing more than a fleeting thought these days. I have no desire to get any pills and my comtempt for hydrocodone grows daily. I realize that it is a good pain medicine and serves a viable purpose but I abused it and therein lies my hatred for it and of course there is no one to blame but myself. I am learning to give myself a break though. I am taking cymbalta for back pain and depression, clonazapam (short term) for horrific and debilitating panic attacks (yes, I know that benzodiazapines are risky in their own right) and today I was prescribed Vyvanse by a psychiatrist whom I trust greatly. He worked with my mother, grandmother, and myself as an adolescent. Unfortunately, after 45 years of practice he is winding down. Its kind of funny. He told me that he tought I was intelligent and blah, blah, blah but "I am not the man for you to see". He said I was very interesting and intriguing and would love to work such a unique case but with that being said "You are exactly the kind of person I want to stay away from because I am winding down my practice and plan to retire soon and this would be a high maintainance case". His blatant honesty is greatly appreciated. He did recommend another Dr. who is not taking patients as I found out. Then he reccommended another Dr., from whom I am awaiting a phone call. This newly prescribed medicine (Vyvance) is new and is prescribed for ADHD which I have never been diagnosed nor am I convinced that I am afflicted with. It is basically an amphetamine that has been engineered to minimize the potential for abuse and my research on the drug has been consistent with those claims. It is very "speedy" though. That is not necessarily bad. The Cymbalta absolutely drained every ounce of energy out of me AND caused insomnia.... go figure. So He cut the Cmbalta in half and the Vyvance counters the lethargy and elevated my mood. I am encouraged and a little scared at the same time. Enough about my meds though. As I posted last, my wife had "cut me off" intimately which was a shock and very upsetting. Apparently it was just a couple of days thing because, well... you know.... problem solved. WHEW ! ;) I am not depressed and my anxiety is under control. Things are going good today. I hope they are good for you all too. Thanks for reading my rants and I just want to say that I appreciate the people here who are giving me so much support. Although I started this thread, everyone is welcome to share if they need someone. I am here for you too. Thanks again !!!!!! With love and hope,ms1. (PS my wife, who does not read this, thinks I'm silly for being excited that nearly 1000 people have visited the thread. I know its not a competition but I still think its neat!)
I withstood a huge test of willpower two days ago. I arrested an individual who had THOUSANDS of hydrocodone and three pharmaceutical, bulk sized, bottles of codeine syrup and a cache of enough pills, mostly opiods, to stock a small pharmacy. Talk about tests and triggers ! It really kicked off a huge craving but I maintained my professional integrity and willpower and although it really kind of scared me, it boosted my confidence. It also let me know how fragile willpower is. Things at home are continuing to heal and my medication (cymbalta,vyvanse) is seemingly well balanced. Overall, things are good and I hope that the same is true for you. Yet another day........ ms1
Hello everyone,
I hope you are all doing well. Things are pretty good from my end. I am still off the opioids and my pain is still managed well with the cymbalta. I'm working on figuring out the best balance in dosage between the cymbalta and vyvanse. One of the medications or the combination of them is making my hands shake. I'm not sure which one or in what combination. I also can't tell if it is worse on the coming up (for the vyvanse) or when I am due for more medication. In other words, I don't recognize if the shaking is a side effect of the meds or a reaction by my body to their absence or diminishing presence. The depression and energy problems are pretty well treated at this time though. The vyvanse does kick off some anxiety though. I have not been taking anything for this because everything at home with the wife is going pretty smooth and I wanted to limit any kind of benzodiazapine (anti-anxiety drug) useage to situational stress specific anxiety/panic attacks. I am kind of afraid that it could have the potential to kick off other avenues for "issues" ( ie . depending on anti-anxiety meds to feel "normal"). I can say however, that although I recognize the addictive nature of "benzos" from what I've read, I don't recognize any recreational effects for taking them... nor do I want to. As time has been passing and I've maintained my part of the bargain with my wife and helped to fulfill the needs that were long neglected while I was taking all the hydrocodone, things have been improving at home. So, I thought I would drop a quick ... or not so quick line to the group. Good luck and if you are just starting where I was with the pain meds struggle 6-7 weeks ago after taking them for years just remember that it can be done...... and I had forgotten what a wholesome and more fulfilling place that sobriety could provide. There are always bumps in the road along the way but take it one day at a time. ...... ms1
Hello,
So I went to the new psychiatrist today. I have mixed feelings about the meeting. He prescribed me Buspirone for treating the anxiety. This is fine because the only other option I was aware of was benzodiazapines and I don't want to get in the habit of taking them regularly so thats good. They (Buspirone not benzo's) are supposed to be non-addictive but they take 2-3 weeks to begin working. I have nothing there to lose though considering I was taking nothing for anxiety and kind of struggling most days. The doctor wants to stop the Vyvanse. I am worried about this decision because it is my source of energy and helps with the Cymbalta side effects. I need the Cymbalta for pain/ depression issues and it works. It just drains me of all of my energy. I will give it a try though. Vyvanse is a controlled substance so I do understand his hesitation to prescribe it although by design it has built in abuse safeguards. Well, I hear my baby crying.... gotta go...... ma1
hey folks,
so i started feeling like crap w/out the vyvanse and made an appointment to see the doctor again and he prescribed my 70 mgs of Vyvanse for 30 days. I am able to accomplish the routine daily tasks again. This makes me feel really good that I am being productive. I have energy again. I had never considered a possibility that I had ADD. Now I'm not sure. I always considered ADD to be synonymous with hyperactivity (ADHD I guess) and I am never hyper-active..... quite the opposite..... a slug. I looked up ADD and found that a Dr. named Dr Daniel Amen had written a lot about it and identified "6 types of ADD". He appears to be well recognized in the psychiatric community and when I reviewed some of his writings and took a couple of tests I found that "Limbic" and "Inattentive" ADD symptoms fit me to a tee. I can't help but wonder if I am merely justifying another pharmaceutical avenue which may be to my detriment or do I really need this? Am I looking for the easy way out? I really want to do the right thing but I have definitely been plagued by anxiety, depression, lethargy, and lack of motivation for my entire life...... this sucks too. I just want to be "normal" and I can't imagine that my baseline is normal for everyone else unless they are really good at hiding it or just tougher than me and able to persevere throughout the day. I want to be a productive father and husband. I am productive at work no matter what because I can usually make something happen and that leads to an adrenaline rush every time. Then I feel alive, alert, an so on. If anyone has any input on ADD or think I'm just full of crap and just justifying a new potential problem please speak up. I'm usually well informed about my endeavors but I am at a loss. I never even considered ADD. I can't help but to half-heartedly embrace the idea that perhaps I've finally found the root of my problems that have been existent for so long. Although I resent the fact that I may "need" medication to be "normal" I must admit that at this point, if I can identify the problem and treat it the "right " way then I should do just that. Sooooo.... feedback anyone???? Thanks and I hope y'all are doing well today. ms1.
hello,
I hope everyone had a nice thanksgiving. i had a nice one. it seems like the days of using, craving, needing hydrocodone were so far in the past. it's been about two and a half - three months now. i don't have any cravings or urges or dreams about the pills anymore. it is unfortunate that it took something so big as my wife threatening to leave me to get me to quit. as painful as all of this has been I believe that it has all been for a good purpose. I was in over my head and couldn't stop even though I wanted to. I felt trapped. my wife sort of forced me to get my "stuff" together. I was heartbroken initially but things are coming together. Without this situation coming to be I would never have stopped the hydrocodone and was moving in the direction of using stronger opiates b/c the hydro wasn't cutting it anymore. I would not have gone to counseling or a psychiatrist for meds to deal with the root of the problem that I was self-medicating w/ the hydro. My wife finally committed to me that she would not just leave me to take a job offer across the country. This sounds like a no-brainer but it had been a huge source of worry and sadness for me. It is a big step in the right direction for the healing of our relationship. Don't get me wrong, I still have lots of work to do in several areas and I am on board for that. For now though, things are easier and more stable. I was totally obsessing about the marital problems and with the holidays coming up I was stuck on the thought that this may be the last season with my family as I know it. I am much more optimistic now. I have a qustion though. As some of you know, I am taking Vyvanse for ADD (possibly limbic). It has made the most profound positive difference in my everyday life than anything else I have ever been prescribed. I also take cymbalta for depression/nerve pain, and buspiron for anxiety. The vyvanse is a "12 hour" time release drug. It seems to wear off after 9-10 hours which leaves me lethargic and depression starts to set back in. My days are typically 16-24 hours. I need something to carry me through the rest of the day. I am afraid to tell my psychiatrist that I have been opening the pills and taking about 1/3 of the medicine out of one and taking it when the initial dose wears off (not everyday just the long ones). I am afraid he will think that I am attempting to abuse it and cut me off. Does anyone else have personal experience with vyvanse (or adderal time release is similar I'm told). I don't want to get into trouble by not following the directions exactly but I think I need something to fill in the last few hours of the day. just wondering if anyone else has dealt with this. good luck to you all and happy holidays. be strong. .... ms1
[QUOTE=ms1;3319452]hello,
I hope everyone had a nice thanksgiving. i had a nice one. it seems like the days of using, craving, needing hydrocodone were so far in the past. it's been about two and a half - three months now. i don't have any cravings or urges or dreams about the pills anymore. it is unfortunate that it took something so big as my wife threatening to leave me to get me to quit. as painful as all of this has been I believe that it has all been for a good purpose. I was in over my head and couldn't stop even though I wanted to. I felt trapped. my wife sort of forced me to get my "stuff" together. I was heartbroken initially but things are coming together. Without this situation coming to be I would never have stopped the hydrocodone and was moving in the direction of using stronger opiates b/c the hydro wasn't cutting it anymore. I would not have gone to counseling or a psychiatrist for meds to deal with the root of the problem that I was self-medicating w/ the hydro. My wife finally committed to me that she would not just leave me to take a job offer across the country. This sounds like a no-brainer but it had been a huge source of worry and sadness for me. It is a big step in the right direction for the healing of our relationship. Don't get me wrong, I still have lots of work to do in several areas and I am on board for that. For now though, things are easier and more stable. I was totally obsessing about the marital problems and with the holidays coming up I was stuck on the thought that this may be the last season with my family as I know it. I am much more optimistic now. I have a qustion though. As some of you know, I am taking Vyvanse for ADD (possibly limbic). It has made the most profound positive difference in my everyday life than anything else I have ever been prescribed. I also take cymbalta for depression/nerve pain, and buspiron for anxiety. The vyvanse is a "12 hour" time release drug. It seems to wear off after 9-10 hours which leaves me lethargic and depression starts to set back in. My days are typically 16-24 hours. I need something to carry me through the rest of the day. I am afraid to tell my psychiatrist that I have been opening the pills and taking about 1/3 of the medicine out of one and taking it when the initial dose wears off (not everyday just the long ones). I am afraid he will think that I am attempting to abuse it and cut me off. Does anyone else have personal experience with vyvanse (or adderal time release is similar I'm told). I don't want to get into trouble by not following the directions exactly but I think I need something to fill in the last few hours of the day. just wondering if anyone else has dealt with this. good luck to you all and happy holidays. be strong. .... ms1Please be careful because your add medication is a stimulant and can become very addicting.I was taking adderall and started taking more than prescribed.I came to my senses and stopped altogether.Do not tell the doctor your opening your pills.You should tell him the truth,you need a higher dosage because the amt your taking is not getting you through the day.The best thing is honesty!Good luck and let me know how things are going. lisa