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I have been clean for 11 years. I used to do coke, crystal meth, acid, pot, xanax, and lots of alcohol. I am suffering from schizophrenia and I had a relapse of that. All the delusions, hallucinations and voices are driving me crazy. I have been on meds for 2 weeks and they haven't started working yet. Plus the meds make me sleep like 15 hours a day. I am contemplating using coke or meth to help me stay awake. I regestered for college this fall. I am taking 3 classes and am just barely full time. I hadn't relapsed when I regestered and paid for my tuition. Ive got to go to college and go back to work and get off disablity. However I can't do that if I am sleeping all the time. I am getting desperate and starting stinking thinking and my mind is going a mile a min. I just feel so stuck and I want out I just can't deal with all this. I see my dr on Tues but even if we were to switch phyc meds it would take about 6 weeks for it to kick in. I can't wait that long. All this worry and I am having panic attacks from things that I am delusional and hallucinating over. I need something to help me relax and enjoy life a little better. Am I making any sense? Someone talk me out of this because I know there has got to be a better way.