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I am glad to have found this site. I have a very serious drinking problem & on occasion when I can get my paws on Loritab & Xanax I mix those with alcohol.

I am an alcoholic and I have been clean off and on but lately I cannot stay sober. I continue to reach for a drink after a hard day at work or for that matter, any little "excuse" I can find to drink. I hate myself right now. Took a vacation day from work and had so many things I wanted to do. Well...sitting here in my pj's drinking wine and smoking cigarettes and it is 11:00 am. My husband is out of town on business so I am really "living it up" without his knowledge.

Anyone relate? I am open to suggestions. I was in AA for 10 years and then went back out. What kills me is that I sit and watch me destroy me through this disease but I am such a wimp that I'd rather sit around drunk than to deal with myself and my problems. It sucks. I know I need AA but just like all my "good" intentions in other areas, I never follow through.

Glad I found this site. I am sorry for rambling on and on and on. I feel so discouraged. Poor me...boo hoo! Have another drink...that will for sure solve my problems...ya, right.

Thanks for listening.

Pony

Quote from ponygirl10:

I am glad to have found this site. I have a very serious drinking problem & on occasion when I can get my paws on Loritab & Xanax I mix those with alcohol.

I am an alcoholic and I have been clean off and on but lately I cannot stay sober. I continue to reach for a drink after a hard day at work or for that matter, any little "excuse" I can find to drink. I hate myself right now. Took a vacation day from work and had so many things I wanted to do. Well...sitting here in my pj's drinking wine and smoking cigarettes and it is 11:00 am. My husband is out of town on business so I am really "living it up" without his knowledge.

Anyone relate? I am open to suggestions. I was in AA for 10 years and then went back out. What kills me is that I sit and watch me destroy me through this disease but I am such a wimp that I'd rather sit around drunk than to deal with myself and my problems. It sucks. I know I need AA but just like all my "good" intentions in other areas, I never follow through.

Glad I found this site. I am sorry for rambling on and on and on. I feel so discouraged. Poor me...boo hoo! Have another drink...that will for sure solve my problems...ya, right.

Thanks for listening.

Pony

You hang in there! For me that is all that I can do for this day. I do not know what the solution is, but I do know that every day is a victory. When you wake up in the morning and the first thing you think is: "today is a good day to die", and you chose to live, you have won!