Discussions that mention xanax

Bipolar Disorder board

I have only been in this game for close to a year now and have quit a couple of different meds on my own. I seem to have found a happy medium with lamictal and lithium or so I thought. I got some xanax from my pdoc today for different social situations where I am way too uncomfortable. He set up my next appt , and I have to do bloodwork again , and I am supposed to talk to my therapist again.

$50 worth of pills later, I am ready to say screw this. Its too hard and it sucks and its stupid. I don't want to do this anymore. I want things the way they were, whatever that was. I am taking sleeping meds every nite now not for sleeping, but just to feel goofy for a while before bed. I never remember all that occurred. A guy at work has offered me some sort of calming meds and I think I want them. I need a change or a shake up or something. I think I don't know what I think. I don't know what to do.

Just wondered who has quit and why and how did it work out? If I didn't have children, I think some decisions would be easier. Of course, I wouldn't be in this situation without them.