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I am so sorry to see you have to go through this. I do know how you feel because I went through the same thing with my 24 year old son. For two years I let him live at home while he was using 320 mg of Oxycontin a day and snorting 10 bags of heroin a day. I even called the police on him once because I thought he was suicidal. I couldn't seem to throw him out. I love him so much, I just wanted to help him. It was january of last year and I found his stash of heroin. I didn't know he was doing heroin but I did know about the pills. I lost it when I found the heroin. I told him he had to detox that day or get out. He knew I was serious because when I had told him the other time I was going to call the police, I actually did. He said he would detox but do it at home. I said fine but I bought 50 drug tests on line and started drug testing him at home every day.. The detox he went through was terrible. He put large wholes in the walls of his bedroom. His father stayed with him during the day and I stayed with him at night. On the seveth day he finally got out of bed. He has been clean for one whole year. He was also taking lots of meds from a psychiatrist--lamictal, depakote, high doses of Xanax, klonopin. He weaned himself off those too. He is totally drug free and the happiest I have ever seen him. He even moved to Florida 3 months ago so he could fulfill a life long dream of becoming a fishing guide. He is doing great down there. He had to leave to get away from his drug using girlfriend and his other friends too. I konw he could relapse but I just take one day at a time and pray he stays clean.

I just want you to know that there is hope. You can't let her back into the house until she is clean. Tell her you love her but she can't be part of your life unless she goes to detox. Stay strong because that is the only thing that will help her in the end. Don't feel like your a bad mom. You are NOT a bad mom. When she screams and yells at you, it is the drugs talking not your girl. You must remember, no matter what she says IT'S THE DRUGS TALKING.
Inside her heart she loves you but right now she can't remember that. If worse comes to worse and she won't go to detox--It is not your fault.

I wish you would go to Alanon. It helps parents going through this so much.

I'll be praying for you.