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Lyme Disease board

Hi all-

I am having the lumbar puncture done tomorrow and I can't wait to just get it over with. I actually moved it up from Friday because I stopped my antibiotics last Friday and by Sunday I had symtpoms coming back already. Interestingly enough the stuff that was coming back quickly were all CNS stuff. My temperature was down yesterday into the low 96's, my heart is pounding again, I have burning sensations in my arms and feet, I am soooo dizzy that I feel drunk, the anxiety is back, I am awake everynight from like 3:00 on. I just want to get back on the Ceftin. At least I felt like I was making some progress. I don't understand though how I can feel so bad again so quickly.

I am about to lose by job. I am in sales-have been for years, which is a great job for a working Mom. I work out of my home, have the flexibility that I need, a company car etc., I am going to lose all of that. I am trying to stay positive and figure whatever happens happens for a reason and that some day I will look back on this all and think "Thank God for that", but right now it doesn't feel that way. We are about to lose my income and have to go out anyways tonight to look for a new car since I will lose my company car. (even though I can't drive I am uncomfortable being at home with two little ones and no transporation. I am sure you Moms can understand if there were ever and emergency at their schools I don't care how bad I feel I need to know I can get there.) So, I dangled the "hey, How about we get a pickup truck" line out there in front of my husband and he is all for it.

My short term disability runs out on the 26th of this month and I have to go through filling out all the long term stuff plus filing for social security benefits. I don't know what will come of all this without a "firm" diagnosis so I hope they can find some answers. I don't have another appointment with a possible llmd until March 16th. If this one doesn't pan out then I am going to have to start thinking about traveling to see someone. I have toyed with the idea of going Dr. Jernigans route, but since I am dealing with a work issue I don't know if a D.C. would hold muster for these people. (they are like bulldogs-you should have seen what they put me through to get short term) Also, I am concerned that since my most troubling symtpoms are central nervous system stuff that I.V's might be what will get me back functioning more quickly. I just can't believe that I have to jump through all these hoops for something that is supposed to be a clinical diagnosis, but I need answers, I need to know what is making me sick.

I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow. Wish me luck, I plan on taking a Xanax or two before hand...