hi jules!!! i can feel how you feel!! i felt exactly like that long enough and fopr a couple of moths comming out of that nightmare...i wish we live close and have a coffe...in my case my mood symtoms i guess started to improve with the doxy.., of course i still have anxiety and some other symtoms that gives anxiety as the skin rash, bone pain. when i think about it i get anxious... so i try not to think!!! very hard though.. xanax , in my case helps, i haven take it it in like a month because i am trying to manage it.. but for me, xanax is the best...also reading...but really, i think keeping strong is the best medicine.. dont let deppression win, as jeanne says, i have also heard valeriana is very good, i have a friend who took it for a few months and was wonderfull to heri whish i knew what to tell you on how to get rid of that..,because i was miserable until 2 months ago... slowly i am feeling better and tring to manage it looking for more work, i have soo many bills to pay..and i am not going to see my shirk anymore since he never believed in lyme and he made me feel worse when i was really bad! he told me i should stat medication right away otherwise i will be put in a crazy hospital soon! i was soo scare when he said that! that i starteed the lexapro and never felt so bad in my life!!si if your shirnk dont believe in you, i agree, dont waste your money and time..you know we are always here for you anytime,, just keep being strong and i promess is going to start going away...a big hug for you!